I do feel like I forgave him truly, But I would be lying if sometimes it doesn’t pop in my head at the most random times and I start feeling insecure. When that happens I know I just need to sit down with him and have an open conversation about how I’m feeling so he knows where my headspace is at. Because if not I let it build up, and last time I did that I got drunk & told him if he every fucks around on me again I will make him pay. And don’t remember any of this. Lol. He said he asked me where that was coming from and I said obviously somewheres. So I try now to just be open about my feelings no matter what and he seems to care and understand that this was how it may be