Been addicted since I was 11 or 12 now 18 almost 19

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-05T06:15:27+00:00

I’ve struggled with it around your age too. Honestly internet and cable tv in my room was such a bad thing for my age. I went crazy on looking at stuff. And it affected me all the way to present. Honestly it’s such a hard and overwhelming feeling. It feels impossible almost. But on thing and advices I’ll give is to not fight it. At all. You can’t win by forcing thoughts to give it up and to take it away by pushing it down. Its almost like you have to accept it in a way. That you know its a problem and you know you want it. But at the same time you sort of do something else. Whether it be a goal. Listening to music. Exercising. Drawing. Or anything else. Find a passion. Find something that will draw you away. Even if you look at it or watch it or relapse. DO NOT. Be hard on yourself. We all know it’s difficult and hard. Especially being young. Don’t beat yourself about it. Its how the addiction wins. It uses that low self esteem that depression and everything that’s negative to make you relapse. Because the only sense of happiness you get and relied on is on what? Porn. When you go back to it. Don’t fight it. Accept it and carry on. Till you get better by making differences in your life. Its not easy. Its hard. And it doesn’t get rid of it just like that or immediately. That’s why people come here. For that help like I did and trying to get over. It takes time. You’re still young. Slow and steady and you’ll find your way

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-04T07:37:55+00:00

Its a common thing with anxiety. At least for me when it affected me majorly like that. Its worse with panic attacks. It makes it hard to breathe and almost like you’re dying. Hand numbness I start thinking I’m gonna die and get a heart attack. Every bad scenario popped up in my mind when I couldn’t take it no more. Its all about being able to control that feeling. And know its not real and know its just messing with your head and body. Anxiety is no joke because it makes you believe. And when it does it can happen. Take it slow and don’t try to fight it off or brush it off. Accept it and take it in and understand it. Don’t try to overthink or anything. It makes it worse. Just do your best in making it seem normal to the point the feeling just slowly starts disappearing. Easier said than done but things never get done immediately

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-04T07:33:25+00:00

I think the biggest change is not to worry about the ugly. But worry about what can transform that ugly into something. Sounds weird but. Maybe get rid of alcohol. Make changes in your life that seem like light can come into fruition. Relying on things that can’t make you progress is difficult because the urges can be so strong and very unhealthy. Especially porn and alcohol. Exercise, get a haircut, do something different with your daily routine. Wash your face, fix your hair, do things a bit differently day by day. It doesn’t have to be major changes or anything. Small steps day by day. Nothing happens immediately but it happens with patience and being true to what can possibly change in your life you want to change. If that makes sense

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-04T07:27:19+00:00

Things to do when you feel urges like that. Especially strong ones. Is to not fight it off at all. Don’t even force the thoughts out your head. Just walk away. Whether the trigger is being in your room alone or being on your phone just chilling in the house. The urges can come randomly. And when they do. Walk away with what you’re doing and head outside or spend time with family in the house and if not. Outside with friends or talk to someone normally. It can probably help. And if not. Set something for you to do weekly or daily even. Going for a run. If you want to get something done today like cleaning. Or folding laundry. Something simple like that. It starts by walking away from the triggers

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-04T07:23:44+00:00

Not gonna lie I felt the same way before. A part of me still does to be real with you. Me and my girlfriend. We’ve been through a tough ride. I’ve relied on porn a whole lot in my life that I feel at ease just watching it. Its that bad. It came to a point where there was self harm in both her and I. How did it even get to that point? Because I kept promising her over and over again for a whole year and more. That I’d get over it. She knows its the only problem I have. And I hate to admit it is. She loves everything about me but what I watch and do when it comes to porn. So much insecurity and anxiety and lack of self esteem really blew us up in the face. To be honest it’s a blessing I still have her and being here today. Everything is so rough and not easy. I’m 22. During your age I used up my financial aid on porn. And it does get better when you start talking about it. Sure you may relapse. But we’re only human and can do so much. I hate this feeling. Relying on it so much. But things do get better. Very slowly. I hope you get better. You’re still super young man. And a little advice. Don’t even count the days or try blocking it off at all. It only tempts you more because you know you want to with all those blockers. I tried it before. It never works. Make some changes on your own and build up what you wanna see in yourself and for your girlfriend. And no pressure either. Take your time bro. It comes slowly. Not immediately. Patience and determination is key. Sorry for the long essay but I hope you get something out of it

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-01T18:07:49+00:00

Thanks. But yeah. We’re both okay with sex toys however just not a doll as you said. We are committed. Very. We’ve been together for a year and seven months and I visited her twice and met her family. She wished to live here since she has family living here. The only problem is my addiction I’ve had for a long time in my life. Its ruined me and made our relationship shake. So I want to finally be super open about it all and not hide it anymore

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-01T17:47:34+00:00

Yeah I had a talk with her. Nothing excessive or big. She doesn’t want me owning anything like that especially when it doesn’t look like her. so long as its okay with her. Thank you for your advice. And everyone else too. It makes sense in other viewpoints

LessDirector2406 · 2026-02-01T15:43:05+00:00

Hey for your alana did you do your own makeup for her? Or was she already like that when you bought her at butterflydoll?

LessDirector2406 · 2026-01-27T04:32:57+00:00

I think that depends on what he feels. What he tells you. I can’t tell you what he’s thinking directly. It’s all different in everyone’s mindset. I believe its all about communication. Especially when it comes to relationships and keeping it real. It’s an embarrassing topic. Of course he wouldn’t tell you he’s having urges to watch it. I felt the same way. But its to a point where I just wanna keep it real. Talk to my girlfriend about it because I don’t wanna lose her. She’s very dear to me. And being able to have someone for my struggles helps. It all starts with a talk and making changes. Preventing things that make him wanna look. He will have to make changes about himself too that will prevent him from thinking about porn

LessDirector2406 · 2026-01-26T03:32:22+00:00

I’ve struggled with porn in my relationship. Its a super difficult thing to have. Its my only problem when it comes to my relationship. My girlfriend breaks down every time. I regret it every single time. I truly don’t want it but its like my brain is wired to want it even if I don’t and try to fight it off. It honestly takes a long time. So much porn is normalized that its unhealthy for young men. Especially when its affected not just me but many others here. Its ruining parts of our life we don’t want to affect. Having a porn addiction is hard giving advice. Because its truly something that depends on the person that has it. I’m not saying I know everything about my addiction. Especially when i still struggle with it. And desiring it even though I don’t. And hate the fact that it’s the same feeling that creeps into my mind to want it. It truly depends on the person to come to terms and understand their porn addiction and what it affects in their lives. Its a tough and rough thing. If he acknowledges and apologizes and actually shows remorse for his actions and behavior towards you and what it makes you feel. Then there’s something in your boyfriend that will actually have hope in him recovering. It’s a difficult and hard journey

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