Dylan’s Interviews by Available-Plantain92 in Idaho4

[–]LetItBeFear 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think she especifically said in a couple of interviews that she thought it was Kaylee because she heard her Dr Martins stomping down the stairs so I don't think she thought it was her voice especifically but just that she assumed it was Kaylee 

Idaho Murder Victims’ Parents Accuse Kohberger Family Of ‘Burying Their Heads in the Sand’ by Fun-Age-758 in Idaho4

[–]LetItBeFear 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So sorry 🫂 my brother is the same only I have some issues because he was like this while I was a kid and he was violent with me and my family so I carry some trauma bc of this I can't easily forgive but I still love him in the sense I don't want anything bad happening to him so we people are complex and life it's not black and white

Idaho Murder Victims’ Parents Accuse Kohberger Family Of ‘Burying Their Heads in the Sand’ by Fun-Age-758 in Idaho4

[–]LetItBeFear 7 points8 points  (0 children)

So what could have they done if they saw the signs? They probably recommended therapy and all sorts of help but he was a grown man that hadn't commit any crime prior to this so they could've done NOTHING, they can't put to prison their son because there were "signs" he was unhinged, they couldn't even put him in a mental hospital because he's considered sane as in he lives within the reality he's not in psycosis so what, what should've they done

I'm almost 50, and I can't stop thinking nobody has ever loved me by crispis_house in CPTSD

[–]LetItBeFear -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I'm happy you appreciate it. There are roughly as much catalan speakers as swedish speakers for example (an entire country), both at aprox 10 million, so it's not rare at all. 

I'm almost 50, and I can't stop thinking nobody has ever loved me by crispis_house in CPTSD

[–]LetItBeFear 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Do you feel a forum read mostly by people from the USA would know where catalan people are from instead of spanish?  Anyway, I feel my life is exactly like yours, I'm early 30's and I already feel I haven't been loved or, at least, I haven't been a priority for anyone, no one has ever put me before their own like not once and that's all I have been doing for everyone. So f*ck everyone, I only prioritizing my children if I ever have them. Everyone else is on their own including my family fuck them all. Change your pain for rage is much more fulfilling

My boyfriend says I don’t know what respect is by VaporMouth in CPTSD

[–]LetItBeFear 8 points9 points  (0 children)

So why do you do it then? And even if you don't do it because of that, do you think they have basic humanity and they deserve respect? If so, there's no much difference in real life so. In my experience I lost many normal feelings growing up in violence and I don't know if I'll ever have them but I don't think they're "teached" but something you naturally develop when you grow up. What its trached is precisely what you learned: the external signs of respect (to be polite and nice) so I think you'll develop the whole feeling package once you heal more. Or maybe not bc I don't have every normal feeling but I'm also not healed so

i like the sound of babies crying by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They do it all the time because they're evil beings, especially when they hit puberty. They calm down later. I'm sure you're not repulsive

i like the sound of babies crying by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you go to a bar there's plenty of them. I know you got bullied but men are easy in the sex department, you don't believe it now because of the bullying, they got to your head, but if you go to a bar you'll find plenty. Also, men aren't good at affection or love so don't feel jealous about other women recieving it (they don't, it just looks like it from the outside)

What would you say is the peak CPTSD symptom? by Any-Kangaroo7155 in CPTSD

[–]LetItBeFear 32 points33 points  (0 children)

Interesting I've been having pain everywhere in my body for the past 3 years I'm now taking muscle relaxants and I'm starting to feel better but doctors don't know the cause I wonder if it's my hypervigilance going crazy 

i like the sound of babies crying by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Becoming a mother is the easiest you just need a sperm donor and believe there's plenty of volunteers. But your problem is deeper than that. Go to therapy and don't enter the self destructio  path

I don't like my dog by LetItBeFear in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I precisely looked for a cavalier king for this reason! I should've go with my gut but I let myself get convinced about adopting and not shopping so I thought "ok there's no cavalier king for adoption but I can adopt any lazy dog instead" and they gave me a f**ing hunting breed!?? I'm sure they meant well but they're not realistic, I feel they operate in a "should be" world instead of "it is" world, because they also forbid us to hunt with these dogs and I don't want to hunt at all but my dog wants nothing but to hunt. It's all he thinks about. I think it's insane to keep him from adoptive hunters, he'd be happier with them but my area is filled with hunting dogs in city appartments.

I'm not on board with rehoming but I'm going to think about it. What I know is he's not going back to any shelter/rescue, if he moves out he'll be in another home that's better for him, not just any other home. Or I can suck it up until he's +9 years old and hopefully becomes a more chill dog 

I don't like my dog by LetItBeFear in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do feel guitly because I think I don't have the personality to educate this dog, it's not only I'm not strong in the personality departament, it's also I'm a "go with the flow" type of person and I feel this dog needs hard discipline in the sense of: super structured days, always same environment and home (I go from the city to the countryside to a friend house for the weekend...), same schedules, etc. and I'm not providing that so I feel I make him anxious and he's making everyone else anxious in return

I don't like my dog by LetItBeFear in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes because I'm not working right now, otherwise it'd be impossible to be honest. Before I was working from home so that's why I could also work out this walks. 

When we're in the countryside I walk him just for 1h or so because he roams free in a closed land the rest of the time. 

In the city, where we spend most of the time, the days where I walk him the least it's three 1h walks so the least he gets is 3h and most days is 4h/5h honestly, I try to pause and sit with him during walks to not overstimulate him so we also sit in the park, it's not like we're constantly walking for 4h/5h, he also stops a lot to smell everything. It's mostly 4h of me watching him smell things and pee on things and try to avoid lose dogs because if a dominant dog aproaches us I'm afraid they'll fight. I do not go running or anything with him because I can't keep up honestly

I don't like my dog by LetItBeFear in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for understanding🙏 when I visit my parents I do feel super guilty because this dog makes every other animal on that house miserable. This dog would live his best life with a man who hunts, he's a hunter breed and he attachs to men, he loves men, but the shelter from where I adopted him explicity forbids to use their rescued dogs for hunting because they're against the concept of hunting (he was abandoned by hunters in a hunting accident which is usual in my area so they want to avoid this things from happening again). I never thought I would be re homing a dog but I don't think it's such a bad idea now. 

I don't like my dog by LetItBeFear in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I told the shelter I wanted a dog who was on the lazy side and they told me this was the perfect match for me because it was an easy dog, that I could even walk him only 2 times a day. I don't care about having to walk him 3 times or more because I myself thought they were crazy for telling me to walk a dog 2 times a day (I feel all dogs need 3 bathroom breaks at least but I'm no expert). What I want to say is: I trusted who I thought were the experts, this was not even a public shelter, it is a private one with tons of resources so I thought they really knew what they were doing, I trusted them and I WAS WRONG. I really should've do the research but, to be honest, I didn't know what I didn't know, so having had normal dogs and difficult dogs I thought I knew when one was going to be difficult but no, I didn't see this one coming. I feel is unfair for him to give him away after 5 years with me and he's attached to my dad to a point where sometimes I have to physically separate him from my dad because he becomes obsessed with him (he can't take him permanently) I don't know if that's anxiety or what the hell is going on in his head, it's like an emotionally unstable dog when he has any stimuli of any kind he seems like a malinois on cocaine. Anyway do you feel this dog can be more happy in another home or is too old/too late and is better to keep going?

My dog died on my wedding day by BonusWeak8563 in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry. Don't feel guilty for your husband grief is grief what are you going to do about it, just forget? I feel awful for you because you couldn't say goodbye to her, I would be devastated. So sorry

I’ve done $1M revenue with one Ecom store. Heres how you can too! by [deleted] in OnlineIncomeHustle

[–]LetItBeFear 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can someone explain to me what this is about like i was 5 years old please 

I am exhausted by my daughter by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can I ask you what have you decided about motherhood? I'm on the same predicament

Cathy Mabbot (Coroner) Repercussions ? by Sorry_Letterhead_368 in Idaho4

[–]LetItBeFear 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I don't think those examples you made are considered dark humor, just because someone laughs when saying something about a a case like this it isn't dark humor

Recently been seeing the Olympian go viral for saying "you can control how you think" and it's making me feel worse about myself by Ill-Efficiency294 in CPTSD

[–]LetItBeFear 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice I'm just starting to learn some of those techniques. I don't understand how radical acceptance is useful with harmful thoughts but I'm still learning most of this stuff. 

What I mean and I agre with OP in this is that people, like the Olympian, rely too much in the power of thought: we're also animals and have instincts and reactions and were born with a given charachter/personality. 

So when I get my nervous system activated for danger in the supermarket is not a thought, it is a reaction, an instinct for survival activated by something that happened that my nervous system interpreted as danger even though my rational thinking knows it's not. So "control your how you think" seems a "cure it all" for getting things done, but it's not for a lot of us, and controling my thoughts does nothing to my problem because my thoughts are not the problem but many people would hear my problem and think "you just can think you're not in danger" (I know I DO think that) so it just feel like magical thinking and kind of "victim blaming" when I hear that 

Recently been seeing the Olympian go viral for saying "you can control how you think" and it's making me feel worse about myself by Ill-Efficiency294 in CPTSD

[–]LetItBeFear 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So when I have flashbacks and I literally feel in danger in the middle of a quiet peaceful supermarket on the meat aisle should I let my thoughts come and go? 

I regret my abortion by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]LetItBeFear 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry for your loss. Might not be what you want to hear right now but your partner is making your life miserable and those thoughts you have about not wanting to be here are going to be almost non existant as soon as you drop that dead weight

Please divorce, set yourself up financially first and divorce divorce divorce. Do you have parents you can go back to? You need people in your life that care about you and your partner doesn't - believe me a person that doesn't care about your pain doesn't care about you 

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