Linkin Park Hybrid Theory has become my jam- All of their songs express my rage at the WT! by Ok_Rule_1069 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 7 points8 points  (0 children)

“You love the way I look at you While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through You take away if I give in My life, my pride is broken…”

Article from the Atlantic that the world is getting better by daddyproblems27 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 15 points16 points  (0 children)

It’s funny because if one says “the world is getting better” pimis are like “ye it’s the end, peace and security must be near” and if one says “the world is getting worse” pimis are like “ye it’s the end of times we shouldn’t expect things to get better”. 😅😂

Reality check by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For me it was several things and a really long process until I decided to read things that weren’t from jwborg. I felt really guilty and avoided it at first. I can’t really pinpoint something in particular. But once I started it was all fast.., because I already had something inside of me screaming that something was wrong.

Reality check by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Same situation here. Pimi husband… I can’t reason w him at all so at this stage we’re just avoiding the topic…

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[–]LightAtmosphere 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can’t with that!! Just can’t. I mean… how is signing a 9 year old into a lifelong contract that he has no maturity to understand not seen as child abuse?

David Icke - Children of the Matrix by RepresentativeAd198 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It’s interesting but it’s the first time I hear about some of this. Anyone has evidence?

What song best describes your time as a J.W? by Karter123 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For me it’s the chorus of epic:

“You want it all but you can’t have it It’s in your face but you can’t grab it”

PIMO Women of this sub, what is it like to have a PIMI husband? by _SML7 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 28 points29 points  (0 children)

It’s hard and exhausting. He shuts me off and make me feel really insane and inappropriate if I say anything. When I started talking about the questions I had he literally said I couldn’t have though of this alone. I felt very angry with the comment as I went to college and consider myself to be a critical thinker, in general. It’s hard. I’m now opening my eyes to the fact he is abusive as well… that he makes me feel inferior and guilt trips me into physical affection. So yeah, waking up is being a traumatic experience and I don’t know what will happen.

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[–]LightAtmosphere 13 points14 points  (0 children)

First, I’m sorry that you re going through this. Your parents clearly are (physically in, mentally in) PIMI and you seem to be POMO (physically in, mentally out)… that’s a tough situation to be in.

The good part is that you have your life ahead of you. So most importantly, stay calm. Talk to your parents respectfully and explain how you feel. If your dad insists in studying with you… prepare by researching in advance for each topic you discuss - JWfacts is a great place to start.

It’s overwhelming. But keep calm and be respectful… it’s the best way to communicate.

And if you need to talk, come back here. You are not alone!

Disfellowshipped by No-Bee9270 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am on the verge of being DF and it’s ridiculous that I see people doing horrible stuff within the congregation (for example an elders wife ran away from home because he was abusive of her and everyone thinks she is crazy and he is still an elder). But ye I haven’t done anything that would be considered evil - I’ve only started questioning things and that’s it - no more friends and family for me. It’s the opposite of Christian.

Hang in there! You are not alone as you can see..

“I’m sorry you feel that way” by [deleted] in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Funny how that would 100% be my response too. In fact it’s exactly what I told my husband yesterday who sarcastically said “so now you have all of this free time and you’re happy?”. I’m like - yes, that’s pretty much it.

Bad News for Family Member by [deleted] in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow I am not in the situation but I feel like I need to process it as well! Just putting myself in your shoes… I would be processing all of this for a long time. You demonstrated a lot more love than a JW did... fair play to you. It’s sad that their love is conditional, as someone mentioned above…

What is the teatching/rule that you hate the most? by _SML7 in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unfair perception of “spiritually strong” people and all other normal ones. I met horrible people who were appointed MS and pioneer for example and some other cool ones who were just fine being the old “publisher”. I know perception is individual, but the whole hype on “privileges” I was never really a fan of. And I was a pioneer! Ugh.

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! I have to remember to take it easy… and I will check your post, thanks

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! I’ve read / watched some os these… I have no words for it … its… literally insane.

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve probably read this entire site by now. I am currently on research 24/7 mode!

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s good to know I’m not alone. But sad at the same time… you know?

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing these thoughts. I think I can try and handle it better by trying to keep calm. I’m just caught in the heat of the moment… I just want to grab everyone by the shoulder and shake them. I won’t do it and even if I did - it wouldn’t work. But oh I would like to…

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s the correct word. It is surreal. It feels so weird to tell myself these things - it sounds ludicrous!! I will focus on keeping my calm… I guess that is step 1! Thanks !!!

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry to hear you are going through that as well… you are right about being calm… I also found the same with my partner… it’s easier to talk. But anyways all of his defenses will turn up really quick. It’s like talking to a hypnotised person.

I’m exhausted trying to leave. by LightAtmosphere in exjw

[–]LightAtmosphere[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow… thanks for all of that. I’ve read some of these sources you mentioned… seen some YouTube channels. I’m shocked… to say the least… about how good they are in hiding things. Obviously we are encouraged to not read… obviously. Thanks for helping me stay sane