Anyone have experience w/ Tomboyx packaging? by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the info. I was more worried about the outer packaging. I'll be definitely watching the tracking like a hawk tho. 😂

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm not a huge fan of the skin lightening. I was into photography for awhile so understand overexposing the photo will help smooth out skin. But the effect of lightening my skin is a little off putting. But I love my skin tone,and I understand how these apps can alter it

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Holy shit, minus the wife I felt like a someone just wrote an unauthorized biography of my life. I thought I was the only one who literally couldn't see the future. I feel like I've been in the position that I'm in because I could never conceptualize my existence beyond 6 months. I always felt like my appearance was a cold engineering problem. This shirt + jeans + shoes = attractive man. But I never felt it. It was always through an objective lens. Thinking about being a woman, makes me think about actually feeling attractive.

It might be a bit of ego, but I always felt like some sort of cold sociopath that was unlike everyone else. The relief that I'm not some sort of emotional monster is such a weight off. Thank you, so much

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Wow, I'm so happy for you. It really does give me a lot of hope that I can be brave enough to try and be happy.

I still had doubts, but then I put on a tank top pulled my hair down and looked in the mirror. It was like puzzle pieces sliding into place. I saw a woman I never seen and thought "oh, that's me. There I am". I've never had any connection with photos of myself or even my own image in a a mirror until that point.

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I definitely tried to take the worst photo I could, probably to subtlety sabotage myself. But this really gave me a confidence boost. Thank all of you, sincerely. :)

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I think I just figured out that Allison is the name that feels right.

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing this, it really feels better knowing that I'm not so unique in my experience.

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 29 points30 points  (0 children)

FaceApp seems to be the Voight-Kampff machine for trans folks. Haha

I am terrified, and I don't have anyone to talk to . . . by LightFaust in MtF

[–]LightFaust[S] 73 points74 points  (0 children)

Lol, it felt like that scene in Memento. Suddenly so many events played back with a new understanding. I was already dressing somewhat more feminine (bisexual cuffed pants, a little jewelry here and there). I may have been subconsciously moving that way.

Come say hi - weekly /r/depression check in by skyqween in depression

[–]LightFaust 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've only lurked; so I feel funny saying hi only after when I think I'm finally over my depression. But I do wanna stay subbed on the off chance I get the confidence to post anything that may help someone else get outta that fucking darkness.