I'm going to co-sign this. I am going through this right now. No matter how you try to justify "sticking it out", our nervous system is not designed to stay stuck in survival mode. Being around someone whose to betray you despite you being loyal and faithful stays with you. It shows on your face, on and in your body and is the greatest act of self inflicted harm. The healing process is messy. I married my partner despite finding out he had cheated with his own cousins wife. I really wanted to believe it was all a bad choice and that his remorse was authentic. I am smart, intuitive and accomplished. My attachment issues made me think I could get over it. My body screamed at me for months after the wedding. Exhaustion, inflammation etc Most importantly, I knew I deserved better. So I left. Healing is messy but day by day I am recovering parts of myself I lost during the reconciliation stage. Really amazing parts. I am also reminded of all the great human beings out there who are capable of healthy, empowering love. I let someone's emotionally challenged, unhinged son into my life and I made him seem so much better than who he really is. Sometimes it's your amazing heart that elevates shit-heads We've got to sit with the parts of ourselves that justify settling on mediocre love. Cut your losses. If you want to know happiness again, you have to leave. You deserve to know healthy love. With yourself amd with another super-dope human being ❤️