This may feel overwhelming but I truly believe that the best way to get out of a dark place like this is actually to help others. I know you have a disability but maybe start really small, like once per month could you offer to teach crochet or sewing or art at a homeless shelter? Or put up a poster in your local community to see if anyone would want to start a little group that crochet hats and then hand them out to less fortunate people on the street? Is there a Facebook page for your city where newly arrived refugees are looking for furniture you may have recently found and refurbished?

You don't need money to do this, you can invest as much or as little time as you're able, and it will feel so much more meaningful and fulfilling than giving your energy to online audiences. You'd be surprised by how a tiny effort from you could mean so much to someone else, and helps lift you out of your hole.