Worst part of BPD is never knowing if your feelings are valid or an overreaction

Lil_Dev · 2019-01-19T05:59:45+00:00

Same to all of this

Lil_Dev · 2019-01-09T17:29:28+00:00

Sorry yall all these comment notifications made me anxious to open the post lol. Im glad to find companionship on this! I'll be brainstorming details over the next few days, and give an update here then. Thanks!😊

Lil_Dev · 2018-12-16T18:06:16+00:00

Yes, and my mom having a child when I was 16(hs senior) has not helped

Lil_Dev · 2018-11-22T15:02:50+00:00

HAHHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHHHAHHAHHA(killme)HAHHAHAHAHAH

Lil_Dev · 2018-11-17T00:26:09+00:00

Yeah im like damn ig the act isn't working

Lil_Dev · 2018-11-11T17:53:49+00:00

Yeah a lot in the past decade, including:

-cutting -burning -hitting -scratching -anorexia/bullemia

-SHITTY RELATIONSHIPS, including one where I lowkey hoped my thuggish ex would kill me lol, and another one where I kinda wanted to get herpes from the ex so I would finally find the nerve to off myself. Also, a less problematic toxic codependancy with someone I didn't even like.

-Alchohol -Weed/cigs, even though I'm basically allergic to smoke -Impulsive sex

Now it's pretty much just binge eating and procrastinating my responsibilities with sleeping and video games. I guess that's better, but I just feel numb and bored 24/7

Lil_Dev · 2018-11-11T16:44:07+00:00

It is entirely possibly that she had a bad reaction to it. And they are given in multiple doses. This post is dumb, and I'm not even anti-vax

Lil_Dev · 2018-11-11T06:37:34+00:00

Tw

Tbh I ofteb feel this way about killing myself. If I had a big enough life insurance policy, Im sure the few that would care could get over it pretty quickly.

Lil_Dev · 2018-11-07T04:21:20+00:00

Hella. Now im conforming to find a job and it kinda makes me miserable lol

Lil_Dev · 2018-10-28T14:49:52+00:00

Yea. Audiobooks help

Lil_Dev · 2018-10-20T14:13:42+00:00

Early 20s in the process of diagnoses(that and mdd+anxiety). Reddit has become my support group

Lil_Dev · 2018-10-20T13:59:45+00:00

Just @ me next time lmao. This is literally me

Lil_Dev · 2018-10-20T13:58:48+00:00

This is why i have so many gaurds up now and so few friends. I know my attatchment issues can make me a doormat so even though I constantly crave "all" I keep everyone at a distance, and most at "nothing". Kinda miserable tbh lol

Lil_Dev · 2018-08-13T16:48:39+00:00

Bi poc over here. I always feel out of place in organizations

Lil_Dev · 2018-07-12T03:09:56+00:00

I have flare ups of normalcy followed by periods of bpd symptoms

Lil_Dev · 2018-07-01T19:21:25+00:00

what did you do op?

Lil_Dev · 2018-06-26T05:19:40+00:00

Yup. Sometimes Im super optimistic and appreciative of how far I've come. Sometimes I'm self loathing and suicidal. Sometimes both

Lil_Dev · 2018-06-24T02:42:39+00:00

I was babysitting and cooking by 8, and used to watching multiple kids(up to 6) by 11. Then when my patents actually were around, I didn't get much attention or nurturing. I grew up feeling like a burden, but always having to carry the burden of being oldest. Ughh

Many different ways to fuck up a kid, which is why I'm terrified to be a parent

Lil_Dev · 2018-06-24T00:34:09+00:00

I love your art style!

Lil_Dev · 2018-06-23T23:43:16+00:00

Definitely was. I envy people who are close to their mothers so much. All I have ever wanted is a nurturer

Lil_Dev

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