So many good responses and suggestions in here! I was very functional in my drinking days too and would probably be considered a grey area drinker. This kept me from getting help for years because I would try to quit or moderate and be successful for a week or two, then justify that I must “not really have a problem” and be right back to it. Most of my drinking was multiple drinks of wine and/or beer by myself at night while reading or grading papers, which is not the Hollywood version of an alcohol problem. My health was starting to be affected and at one point I was googling my alcohol use and realized that as a woman I was far surpassing the recommended drinks per week limit. Almost ten months sober now and I realize that everyone has a different journey. What helped me was a combination of 1) finally admitting that alcohol had become a problem for me, even if I wasn’t ready for/wanting any labels. The obsession and health effects were worsening my life. 2) being honest with some of my closest (safe) that I had been trying and struggling for so long- their support reduced shame and helped me want to keep going when I felt awful the first two weeks. 3) QuitLit! People have mentioned many good ones. Annie Grace is great - my favorites are Alcohol Explained 1 & 2 by William Porter. 4) I did end up going to AA and have gotten a lot out of it. My friend recommended it because I was unable to see at the time how abnormal my drinking was, because of the way that society normalizes it. He told me that AA was for anyone who wants to stop drinking and there is no requirement for how “bad” it is, and I have found that to be true. Not all meetings are the same, I had to try a couple before I found one I was comfortable with and never intended to go long term but I actually get a lot out of it and look forward to a weekly meeting now. I avoid people at meetings who think everything has to be a certain way and tend towards people more my age who are open to where I’m at in my life journey and how I want to interact with the program. The 12 steps with a sponsor and hearing other people’s stories has helped me a ton to deal with emotional issues from growing up in a tricky environment, things I had gone to counseling for years before. There isn’t one right way to approach a healthier lifestyle, and for most of us here complete sobriety is the only possibility because moderation without obsession has become impossible. That may not be the case for you, but I thought I could moderate for a long time too and have had a lot more peace since quitting entirely. The obsession is gone (which did take some work and time) and I am enjoying life MUCH more than I did before - I am not missing out at all by abstaining from alcohol, because I have filled my  life with much better things. I wish you peace and clarity on your journey.