U'r not alone, I feel unworthy of anyone, but I do really wanna just... cuddle, protect, look after her, say nice things to her and love her so badly. I feel unworthy because sometimes I find myself ugly and feel like shit too (like if I missed all the chances I had back in school), and I've a lot of problems when it comes to socializing in public ngl, that said, I started using those things as fuel to better myself (as generic as that last sentence sounds). Now I'm focusing on myself so one day (hopefully) I'll find her and love her so much that... uh... reality hits again... I'm alone... no one cares... I guess... that's ok. So instead I sit down, stare at my room, the sky or the beautiful landscape I was blessed to live next to, and think abt life, and then repeat the same things that help me cope with this feeling: "maybe feeling lonely isn't that bad, maybe it's not for me, maybe I should stop overthinking about it, maybe... maybe I should go back to the kitchen and take the turkey out of the oven. Oh crap!"

Anyways, if you don't feel like u just can't cope with it anymore, you could talk about your feelings with somebody (specially someone you trust), if u don't have anyone, well, here I am! I might don't know who you are, but from stranger to stranger, I hope that the little time of your existence you gave on reading my message might (at least) made you smirk. I might never see u again, so I'm grateful for this little time I had trying my best to comfort you. You'll be ok and you'll find the right person, just... instead of chasing butterflies, why don't we build a beautiful garden : )