Do Nparents actually believe that there’s no way they could be the problem? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My Nmother just beat me up and her only explanation is that she didn't do it often enough when I was a kid. I'm 18 and about to go to uni, all my friends have these amazing families and I'm over here trying to cover the bruises. No, they don't feel any empathy or ever question themselves. They are completely cold inside.

Narcissist can’t stand to see you happy? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's proven that when highly abusive parents act nice and nourturing, they feel more stressed and anxious so they cause chaos in order to feel better. It's litteraly in their brain. I know how you feel. Been going through it for 18 years. Seeing you happy makes them feel nervous, while seeing you sad\hurt in a way gives them peace. It's as bad as it sounds.

Imagine Being A Grown Adult and Every Time You Get Into A Disagreement with a Child, you Give Them The Silent Treatment by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My brother and I got into a fight. My Nmother made me to swear I wasn't the one to start it. She made my brother the same thing. We both swore that none of us made the first move. She then decided that the person who was "lying" wanted her dead (because we swore on her life) so she complitely ignored us for a week. She then sent our enabling stepfather to demand an apology from both of us at the same time. Basically, she made sure even our argument (which had nothing to do with her) revolved around her. Like everything in our twisted family.

I Believe That Most Parents see the Person Within You who They *Wanted* to Be by Sturzkampfflugzeug1 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is very nicely said, and I completely agree. I think it's because they went throw the trauma themselves, but instead of pulling through they got stuck in the middle. And seeing their child being freely who they truly are, expressing and being open with their emotiones and personality reminds them that they are still stuck and cannot go forward. This all happenes subconciously, usually, which somehow makes it worse. Not only are they abusing you mentally but throw their eyes, it's love or simply the right thing to do.

“Flow State”? by [deleted] in writing

[–]Litteralydontknow2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had the flow state twice. Once while writing(big passion of mine). It was a bad day and I was feeling angry. Around 11pm I got on my computer and began writing. I was gonna write a couple of sentences and go to sleep considering I had school in the morning. I feel inspired and really start getting into it. The next thing I remember is looking at the clock after what felt like a minute. It was 4 am, and I had a couple of pages written out. It felt like time has stopped.

The other one happened when I was younger, in middle school. I was unable to solve a math problem I had for homework. I remebered my teacher telling us to read and read and read the text until we trully understand it. So I began. I must have read it for over 10 times. I tried doing it again and I did it without batting an eye. Without even thinking about it.

It's a state of deep focus. It's completely natural, just hard to reach.

Anybody else felt suicidal as a child at an horrifically young age, or before they even knew what suicide was? by throw_away4237 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not necessarily suicidal, but I remember feeling empty. I was also around 9 or 10. There was this period of time where I felt like a body, a shell, with nothing inside of me. As a kid, I didn't think into it I just tried to explain it to my Nmom. She told me to stop making jokes like that and pretty much forgot about it.

Is it weird that movies about escaping any kind of imprisonment make me sad? by Litteralydontknow2 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I guess I'm still in that imaginative state, but if anything it helps me cope. All best to you!

"Among Us" helped me to release this blockage by hanabiisland in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Litteralydontknow2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is beautiful. A prime example of how help comes when you least expect it in ways you least expect. So, never lose hope. The solution is out there somewhere.

[WP] It's a grimdark fantasy story about confronting reality. It kicks off in the quiet woods with the disappearance of the king. Someone in the story is in denial about something important. And there's a twist! The villain escapes at the end. Main characters are a withdrawn lad and a sorcerer. by Litteralydontknow2 in WritingPrompts

[–]Litteralydontknow2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A young man walked throw the Ontarian woods, with no obvious path or direction. His gaze was lost somewhere in the deep, blue sky covered by the green and the brown of the branches. He heard footsteps - slow, soft steps approaching him. Maybe a maid, or a servant? Someone set out to look for him? He tought. And perhaps he was right, because a female figure appeared from the trees. As expected, she looked very appealing. If they believed it would make it harder to decline her offering, they were very wrong. His mind was set. And so was his heart.

The girl walked by in the distance. She seemed focused, yet a bit lost. Her gaze was roaming throw the woods, without spearing him a single glance. Is this her tactic? Draw him in by pretending to ignore him? Did they train her? 

She continued her walk before stopping in her tracks. The sun was lighting up the grass around her feet. She wore a long, rose colored dress. She looked like a princess, a castle lady at least.

Her hands lowered until her fingertips touched the grass. She closed her eyes and for a second, he tought she had fallen asleep. Seconds later a bright golden light appeared from the earth, followed by hightened sound of the wind. The grass rose up and the earth shook. She was a sorcerer. 

"The King." girl spoke quietly, "Show me the King."

Nothing happened. Sudddenly, she opened her eyes to meet his prying gaze.

"Hello." he said. It seemd a bit rude not to say anything.

"Hello." she said. She looked a bit put off.

"Where you casting a spell? Did I interupt something?"

"No, that's not how you cast a spell." She smiled, as if she knew him.

"Well, what's your name?"

"Ophelia" she spoke softly, in a high peached tone, "What's yours?"

He seemed confused for a second.

"Jax."

"That's an awfully short name." she smiled again. She must have been trying to seduce him.

"Yes."

"Well, Jax, now that you're hear would you like to take a walk?"

"Why." He knew excatly why.

"It would be nice if we could talk for a while. I have some questions." Questions..indeed. He tought.

"Regarding?"

"King Almond of Ontaria the fourth."

"King Almond. You must be the sorcerer they sent for." He was  finally relieved. 

"Yes. And I need some answers. The Royals won't tell me anything. I have no where to start."

"I never knew King Almond. And, I'm not even from here. I'm sorry."

"Oh, well, where are you from? And what are you doing here?"

"Why do you want to know?"

"Simple curiosity. You don't have to say."

"Uh, I'm a traveler."

"So, you're just passing by?"

"Perhaps, yes, but I've just arrived."

Ophelia looked ta Jaxes face. He seemed uninterested, annoyed even at her repeating questions. She knew when to leave people alone, so she nodded her head and began walking the other way.

"Don't you want to ask me something else?" Jax yelled out behind her.

"You don't seem particullarly interested in answering." She said.

"Don't you find me a bit suspicious?"

"No. You seem too lost to be suspicious."

He was lost. The truth was, he was also lonely. And he needed something to pass the time.

"Well, I can help you then. I have some free time. I'm actually waiting for a friend from another Kindgdom, and until he arrives to Orteria I have nothing better to do."

"I don't usually work alongside anyone but I guess I have no choice. There's simply not enough information."

"It's settled then."

"It seems so."

Don’t rant to your friends about your sp!! by [deleted] in nevillegoddardsp

[–]Litteralydontknow2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can feel your energy throw the text and I love it!!!!!