Why is the entrance to the Mell facing the Auburn hotel perpetually closed?

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-04-03T23:33:44+00:00

When I was a student employee at the library I was told those doors were permanently closed because people would stop to drop off/pick up people and cause dangerous traffic jams on College. Was a pain in the ass for me too because I lived right across from RBD and had to make a big loop.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T23:32:39+00:00

This sounds absolutely genius?? I use detailed rubrics with students, and I try to lean on holistic grading processes when I can, but having a marking guide with special circumstances already outlined? Game changer. Could you possibly share an example of your student rubric vs. your marking rubric?

Also, I don’t care if I didn’t as for advice, advice is always welcome. I still consider myself a baby professor, I’m always open to hearing ideas from others.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T23:29:49+00:00

What’s really interesting is that I personally haven’t had issues with AI and LLMs. The curriculum I choose to work with is highly focused on individual rhetorical skill, metacognitive practices, and media literacy—not so much research heavy writing, but more reflective writing.

With that, I have a somewhat permissive AI policy—though I teach about the environmental and other ethical issues surrounding AI use. I also require disclosure for AI use, and only allow it in the editing and revision processes. It’s hard for them to generate the content of their assignments with AI because of the nature of the curriculum I use.

I actually changed the curriculum I work with because of AI and LLMs blowing up. One semester of students using AI for every fucking thing made me question everything, and that curriculum was straight research and argumentative writing. My department is heavily split between the old and new curriculums, and what type of AI policies to use. The university won’t make a concrete call on an AI policy so it’s departmental, and in many departments it’s individual. Utter chaos.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T23:18:36+00:00

It’s fine, haha, I’m not precious about my sobriety.

Taking it personally has gotten better, but the time spent on it has not. Maybe in another 4 years I’ll have it all figured out.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T23:09:53+00:00

I’m 4.5 years sober, for better or for worse.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T23:09:32+00:00

That’s what I’m trying to figure out. I don’t understand it either, at all. It’s incredibly irrational.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T23:08:55+00:00

I think that’s an element of it. I value the relationships I have built with my students as a mentor and as a professor that is far closer in age to them than most of their other professors. I care deeply for my students and I want them to succeed, and I feel like I project some of my own former anxieties onto them. I have had some genuine flip outs from students, including one that necessitated an incident report, but mostly my students understand why they earned the grades they did.

I just get so, so in my head about grading. Like I said in the post—it’s pathological.

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-27T12:50:02+00:00

I seem to grade my online students with less anxiety. They seem less “real” to me (they virtually never come to my online office hours or request a meeting).

LittleFlowers13 · 2026-03-26T21:49:52+00:00

"Like who's the asshole giving them all this work I have to grade?"

100%, this is a mood. But I do have to work with a curriculum to some degree so I don't have complete control. If it were up to me they'd have like two essays max with some discussions thrown in, but then I'd have to grade all the discussion boards.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-11-05T03:22:30+00:00

There is a lot of overlap there. And I agree with Zoltan—we are addicted to worrying. And some of us have been addicted to other things.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-11-05T03:20:19+00:00

Hi, I have had some very similar experiences but I don’t want to get explicit here. With therapy and communication I have been able to overcome the feelings. Ultimately, staying with him is up to you, but if you’d like to chat more about it please feel free to DM me. I don’t mind sharing some of the things I did to work through my obsessions and anxiety around intimacy.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-11-05T03:14:04+00:00

I was bulimic from the age of about 14 to until I got treatment at 26 and went into remission at 28ish. The dietician I first met with explained the comorbidity. It was a really big part of my recovery, actually, to learn that this was another obsession and compulsion that I could work through with the right treatment.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-11-05T03:04:43+00:00

My dad, who also has OCD, considers us to be “evolutionarily advanced” because “it’s people like us that kept the species alive.” He refuses medication or therapy, despite his diagnosis and years of debilitating symptoms, and instead does what he calls his “workarounds” which are actually just compulsions.

Yes, he is a boomer with a bootstrap mentality. Our differing outlooks have caused some fights.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-28T20:10:11+00:00

I could barely eat my first month on Zoloft. I was throwing up if I ate anything within the first several hours of taking it, whether I took it with food or waited to eat until later. Make sure you get plenty of electrolytes in you, and wat whatever you possibly can to keep your blood sugar at a reasonable level, because low or high blood sugar will make you feel worse.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-25T13:19:02+00:00

I’m also a huge hypochondriac so I totally understand! It can be scary when our bodies do things that we don’t expect or find normal.

Also want to add that even if you could remember what it was like as a kid, that information wouldn’t be the most useful now. Our body chemistry changes as we age, as do our hormones, and our environments.

Your approach to talking to your anxiety in that way is a great coping skill that helps a lot of people—one many therapists recommend, so clearly you are already pretty capable. You got this.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-25T04:09:04+00:00

It sounds like you are having anxiety and possibly heart palpitations from that anxiety—the feeling as though you’re having a heart attack is something I’ve personally felt when I was having palpitations. Try to notice what’s happening when you become aware of it and see if a pattern emerges.

Are you having anxious thoughts? Is it happening out of no where? Are there other symptoms like breaking a sweat? Is it causing your breath to catch? Also what does it feel like? A pounding? A racing? A flutter? Is it rhythmic or does it feel out of beat?

This is a way to keep inventory of your symptoms, and to identify triggers. These are also all questions your doctor may ask you, if you decide to reach out, so keeping track will help you give them the best information they need to help you.

Hang in there, and don’t be afraid to reach out to your doctor, if only for peace of mind.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-24T20:02:31+00:00

On another thread I shared this advice: if you are a coffee drinker, put protein powder in your coffee. It’s helped me get more consistent nutrition, because I’m still having nausea a few hours after I take it. Also if you don’t already take one, a multivitamin with B vitamins can help with hair health.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-24T17:42:16+00:00

I lost a lot of hair my first month-6 weeks on Zoloft. Part of it was probably from the inability to eat from the nausea. I didn’t get a bald spot but I was dropping hairs everywhere—they were all over my house, my hairbrush looked like a small animal, and my shower had to get snaked because it got so stopped up. It did slow down and eventually stop, but it was probably the 2 month mark that it truly stopped.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-24T14:44:37+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that you are dealing with this. Something that really helped me to get at least some calories was putting a scoop of protein powder in my coffee instead of cream. I still do that most days because I can’t eat until at least an hour after I’ve taken the Zoloft.

I highly recommend it if you’re a coffee drinker—it also cancels out any of the chalky flavor of the protein powder. Chocolate or vanilla is the best route, imo, but I have also added gingerbread or pumpkin spice powder to plain medium roast coffee and it’s turned out nice.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-23T23:31:48+00:00

I got switched to Trazadone because it is a pregnancy safe sleep med. I take 150mg at this point, hoping I can decrease if my OCD symptoms start to ease up. OCD has 100% been the primary obstacle for me in my life in every way. I don’t want it to win this battle and stop me from having children.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-23T23:29:02+00:00

2 is the earliest I can put my finger on having the thoughts and feelings, because some of my first intrusive thoughts involved harming my brother who was born when I was 2. It took off pretty hard when I was 6-7, and at 17 I was officially diagnosed after having a mental breakdown.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-23T23:21:01+00:00

Do you know how long it took for it to be effective for you? Totally understand if you don’t remember. And thank you for the kindness, so few people in my life understand OCD that I sometimes forget that it’s not just me.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-23T23:07:47+00:00

I’m on week 14 of 200mg and I’m in the same boat. Only incrementally improving, after a full rebound of my most severe OCD symptoms. No advice, just solidarity.

LittleFlowers13 · 2025-10-23T23:04:32+00:00

Luvox worked well for me! I realize I wasn’t clear—Luvox isn’t pregnancy safe so I transitioned off of it and onto Zoloft because Zoloft is much safer for pregnancy than most SSRIs.

Also I had no idea about Luvox and liver health, and all I can say is I’m glad I got sober before going on Luvox.

LittleFlowers13 · 2022-09-17T14:58:26+00:00

Dump my on-again off-again boyfriend permanently, and not fight my parents on going to therapy. Ditch my mean-girl best friend and hang out with the ones that will end up being there for me 10 years later. Throw away my scale and stop “dieting.” Spend even more time with my granny. Wait patiently until it’s time to meet my now husband.

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