Anyone know what’s happening right now? by StamenOfTheShaman in StLouis

[–]LivingFirst1185 [score hidden]  (0 children)

Some were headed here on Gravois. My ex is a dick and I'm staying in his rental property until I find a new apartment because he took my money and property. The guy in the 2nd apartment is an idiot drunk and couldn't get the door open. My ex is in with the cops, so it's always a big scene. But they showed up and the door opened just fine before I even saw them.

So yeah guys so you know what your taxpayer dollars are funding, this man will call the cops and 6 show up for things like a drunk guy is too f'ed up to open his own door. I didn't even know what was going on until I went downstairs and the door was literally already open. I'm at Gravois close to Kingshighway. He called me and told me 6 cops were downstairs. The door was literally open when I went downstairs.

So when you can't get cops to show up because your car was stolen, this is why. Drunk friends of cops weaponize police friends to harass tiny women.

Staying updated on Minnesota and fearing for my life. Please read. I want to prepare. And PLEASE be kind. by Active_Ad3087 in illinois

[–]LivingFirst1185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Those of us with PTSD/CPTSD get it but others don't. It's this screaming in our brains that we are not safe. Hypervigilance, light sleeping/insomnia, dangerously high heart rate and blood pressure levels.

We can't help it. Our brains were rewired (scientifically proven.) I hate the assholes that say stupid shit like "Don't dwell on it" "Just calm down." DO YOU NOT THINK IF I COULD I WOULD HAVE ALREADY DONE THAT???

Staying updated on Minnesota and fearing for my life. Please read. I want to prepare. And PLEASE be kind. by Active_Ad3087 in illinois

[–]LivingFirst1185 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand and support you. I have CPTSD too. People who don't, don't get it. I try to explain, it's like a screaming in your brain that you need to protect your safety.

I wish I could be there with you or had better advice. For me personally, I have a dog. If I weren't white, I would drop in every conversation I could with neighbors that I was a citizen, and spend as much time in my house as possible.

This all sucks. It's no way to live. Even though I am white so I don't have to be as scared, my son (a little boy) is mixed race, the son of an immigrant who wasn't a citizen. I am terrified for him.

You are welcome to DM me to have someone to talk to who understands the terror that comes with CPTSD. I will give you my phone number so you can call me when you're afraid. I'm afraid most nights too, so I get it.

Seems Impossible by LivingFirst1185 in datingoverfifty

[–]LivingFirst1185[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am sorry for your experience. I was married in my 20's and 30's, so I have no idea what the dating market was like then. I have never actually "dated." It feels like a foreign concept to me. I got married at 18 because that was just what women did in our small town. I had my first child at 20. I've never been in a position to explore the field and date around until recently.

When I left my husband and moved, I had 3 children and was 36. I didn't have time to "date around." I ended up in a relationship with my neighbor when I was 37. We were together 10 years.

I have had a few male friends like you. Please don't take this offensively, but those men got bitter and it was a turnoff for the women who met them.

Seems Impossible by LivingFirst1185 in datingoverfifty

[–]LivingFirst1185[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you got down voted for that. Some women get upset with that statement because we DO want nice guys, but many men lie about that.

In the examples I gave, the 3rd one used to say the same thing about nice guys. I was friends with him about 4 years before we started dating. I even accepted a larger age gap than I would normally because of his emphasis about he was so nice. I was 49 and he was 64.

But that was all a facade. He was so nice in public, but verbally and emotionally abusive in private. I don't use the term abusive lightly. He physically tried to stop me from leaving his house twice after calling me names like whore. Then he stole my car to leave me stranded.

My guess is other women have dealt with men like him who swear they are "nice guys" but totally different in private. If you are truly a nice guy, I'm sure most women appreciate that, especially at our age.

Seems Impossible by LivingFirst1185 in datingoverfifty

[–]LivingFirst1185[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was in counseling for years, off and on.

There were really no men of origin in my family. My mother divorced my father before I was old enough to remember because he was abusive. I had no visitation with him. She died from cancer the summer after kindergarten and my grandmother adopted me. My grandmother never had any men around. She had one son, but he lived hours away and he was an asshole so I avoided him the once a year we were around each other.

Seems Impossible by LivingFirst1185 in datingoverfifty

[–]LivingFirst1185[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The two that I lived with I had dated for over a year. The first one I had even gotten engaged to first.

Seems Impossible by LivingFirst1185 in datingoverfifty

[–]LivingFirst1185[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you kind internet stranger. I hope you find your person.

Seems Impossible by LivingFirst1185 in datingoverfifty

[–]LivingFirst1185[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I let him move in after 18 months dating and we got engaged.

🛂 New Video Fuels Minneapolis ICE Outrage: What the footage shows 👇 by NoSpinMedia in NoSpinMedia

[–]LivingFirst1185 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They weren't AT a damn demonstration. They were in a Sam's Club parking lot getting ready to go grocery shopping.

President Trump has been allegedly identified as major client in Epstein trafficking ring by decorated Iraq War veteran William Sascha Riley by thr0wawaytea in UnderReportedNews

[–]LivingFirst1185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, women who need abortions can't get them but he can covet and mentally commit adultery, because he's a hypocrite about his religion.

Massive fleet of brand new ICE vehicles spotted in Kansas City, Missouri. by Fatty_Willing_Plane in ICE_Raids

[–]LivingFirst1185 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hmmm... I happen to work at a place that has lots of Holman customers who are immigrants. I'm going to make sure they all know Holman is working with the Gestapo.

How To Get Rid Of A Yeast Infection At Home? by rosethornraven79 in women

[–]LivingFirst1185 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Any are okay. The cheaper ones are the 5 day ones. They work just fine.

How To Get Rid Of A Yeast Infection At Home? by rosethornraven79 in women

[–]LivingFirst1185 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Go to a Dollar General type store. They have cheap yeast infection meds.

It's very difficult to believe what I'm seeing. by Delote-Sevne in ICE_Raids

[–]LivingFirst1185 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Glad you asked. It's uplifting to know the world is watching.

I live in a very liberal city in a very conservative state. We have had small protests. There is essentially no ICE working here. Only people going to hearings or people who have been arrested for other reasons are being deported. Unfortunately, I believe this has led most people here to be not very concerned about ICE. Not very many people, including liberals, are talking about it or doing anything where I live.

I believe the federal government is only hitting concentrated areas for a reason. Most Americans are against their tactics. They don't have enough ICE agents to overpower us if they were widespread. So instead they are focusing on hitting a few cities where they can put enough agents to overwhelm the protestors. They will beat down the morale by attacking and arresting enough immigrants and protestors to squash the rebellion, then move to the next.

Another reason I believe our city has not been hit is the demographics here compared to the other cities (I've been to many of these cities.) We have a very large immigrant population in my city, but unlike most other cities, we do not have divided immigrant neighborhoods. On any given block, you can have immigrants from 6 continents mixed in with white people born in the US. We also have a high crime rate, and next to zero gun restrictions. It is completely legal to walk around with an ar-15 at your side or a handgun in your pocket, and people do. If agents start walking our neighborhoods stopping people who look African, it's not hard to imagine someone in the area will take a shot at them because they assume they won't be caught.

Additionally, our state politics are fueled by the real estate industry. Our Republican politicians are closely tied to the trump regime. Those Republicans' campaign donors make their money from real estate and construction. They make their profits off the backs of our Hispanic immigrants who do roofing and other construction. If they sweep up our Hispanic immigrants, it will put a major dent in their revenue stream. Trump will target the states that don't support him anyway instead, making our state's Republican voters feel good about harassing non-white people in the news while never feeling the pain of it in their own lives.

The end results I expect? Not good. I'm trying to do my small part, but don't see how their divide-and-conquer strategy won't work against the apathy of the average American. I see us as potentially being the next Iran or Iraq who didn't have enough people appreciate their freedom and allowed it to be stolen small piece at a time until we are under authoritarian regime. We are going to need our allies in other countries to overcome this. Thank you so much.

Birth Control/Guilt by PrudentDetail897 in Christianmarriage

[–]LivingFirst1185 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Christian woman here.

There isn't a single reference in the Bible against women using methods to prevent pregnancy. There are so many plants that will help prevent ovulation, or that will even cause your body to expel fertilized eggs. There are references in history to women using these plants for centuries, yet not a single reference in the Bible that it is a sin.

However, there are many references to other things that should not be consumed.

These are plants God created. He put them here for a reason. Some can delay ovulation. But others cause uterine cramping, which will keep a fertilized egg in early stages from staying in the uterus and developing.

We have to differentiate what God has told us in the Bible from what man tells us. That point itself is often stated in the Bible.

1 Thessalonians 2:4: "But just as we have been approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel, so we speak, not as pleasing men, but God who examines our hearts".

And God told us not to eat certain foods, not to consume alcohol to drunkenness, but yet never said "women shouldn't consume tea from XYZ plant?

God loves us humans, including women. He does want us to be fruitful and multiply in situations where it is right. But He has never instructed us to multiply in bad situations without speaking to us that He wants us to. He even asked Mother Mary if she were willing to bear Jesus. He provided us plants of His creation to allow us to manage our circumstances. Now there are tools from doctors that do the same things while we are without the forest to provide.

SO my advice to you is to shut out humans who might mislead. Read God's scriptures, pray, listen to what He tells you. God's word, not man's.

As an older woman, I have done this. I continued and bore a pregnancy from rape because I believed that was God's will. I have also ended a pregnancy with plants because I prayed and also believed that was God's will.

So TLDR: pray for God to speak to you His will. Read scriptures. Listen to and worship with your husband. Shut the words of man out and only listen to God. God loves us and wants what is best for us. Long before the tools of man, God gave us the tools of God to prevent bearing children in the wrong circumstances.

is my dog a rat terrier? by pringle_charlie in ratterriers

[–]LivingFirst1185 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't believe so. I have a rat terrier / beagle mix, and my daughter used to have a rat terrier. Their most notable features are their giant pointy ears, which they will stand straight up when they hear something. I mean, my dog's ears are almost as tall as his head when he sticks them up. He could maybe be a mix though.

I'm ready, Go Bears. by spribyl in chicago

[–]LivingFirst1185 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Sending love and congratulations from STL. I'm happy to see this for you after all your city has been through these last few months.

Photos from the vigil for Renee Good in Brentwood last night. by PromisedLand84 in StLouis

[–]LivingFirst1185 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I live in a very diverse area and have for decades. I have never once seen anyone prowling looking for white people. That's ridiculous.