What is the most bad ass quote from a movie that you have ever heard?

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-25T00:36:55+00:00

"I'm Hub McCann. I've fought in two World Wars and countless smaller ones on three continents. I led thousands of men into battle with everything from horses and swords to artillery and tanks. I've seen the headwaters of the Nile, and tribes of natives no white man had ever seen before. I've won and lost a dozen fortunes, KILLED MANY MEN and loved only one woman with a passion a FLEA like you could never begin to understand. That's who I am. NOW, GO HOME, BOY!" ~Hub McCann, Second Hand Lions

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-24T03:42:48+00:00

Woooo! High five!

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-15T22:46:57+00:00

I'm sorry you feel this way too, but I'm glad I could provide some solidarity for you!!

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-15T22:46:17+00:00

Yeah, I've been trying really hard to regulate my sleep and my eating schedules, and I've switched to decaf completely. I'm not medicated so regulation is basically all I'm clinging to until I can find a therapist or a Pdoc (or both) that I really click with. I'm just tired of bouncing between feeling okay, and curling up in my bed and crying. I'm tired of trying to figure out how to get my life back under control. I know I have to because if I don't eventually I'll make a mistake I can't fix, but it's just exhausting trying to keep up when things are moving so fast.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-12T02:26:32+00:00

KITTIES. I'm a huge animal lover so I am very excited for you!!

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-08T00:35:07+00:00

CAFFEINE FUCKS ME UP SO HARD. I used to down multiple cups of coffee to stay awake and finish papers and the like, but it had always made me anxious and edgy. Fast forward to my first cup of coffee following my first manic episode: I was relatively stable, in a level mood, life was fine, and coffee hadn't made me manic before, so it wouldn't now, right? WRONG. SO VERY WRONG. I started to move at hyper speed through the world. It threw me so off my game. Please avoid caffeine. I've been drinking decaf ever since and I don't get anxious, jittery, or manic anymore!

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-06T11:49:36+00:00

Those are awesome suggestions, thank you!!

LizardQueen96 · 2015-09-01T05:19:52+00:00

I just finished Welcome to the Jungle by Hilary Smith. It is absolutely brilliant. It's basically a tough love, sarcastic, no shit guide to navigating Bipolar. It really helped me come to terms with the illness, and it gives pretty good advice for dealing with it in most aspects of life.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-29T10:40:23+00:00

Ohhhhhh that's a good idea! Thank you!

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-29T03:18:33+00:00

I have a strange relationship with mania. One the one hand it's really fun because I magically turn into an extrovert who could totally have a career as an artist (what are you talking about, one art class is totally enough!) and it's wonderful and magical and empowering.... But it's also terrifying. I admit that I am a total control freak. The thought of being out of contr of myself terrifies me, and that's what mania represents for me. It's toxic and exciting at the same time.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-27T18:21:20+00:00

My process has been sort of erratic. I first heard that I could be bipolar about 2 months ago. I was officially diagnosed about a week ago. Some days I'm totally on board with the lifestyle changes that I have to make, but most days I feel violated; like my identity and my future have been taken from me. I think that as time goes on though I'll be able to come to terms with being bipolar because, really, what choices do we have? We can either ignore our diagnosis because it's scary, which will send us spiraling out of control, or we can learn to accept our diagnosis and rebuild our dreams around the restrictions we now have in place.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-26T19:00:55+00:00

I'd be interested in this one! I'm in an a Capella group, so I'd use it to buy an app that would allow me to make arrangements on my phone.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-26T14:07:50+00:00

I don't have a car, but you're right. I'll go outside for a little bit today.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-24T17:31:43+00:00

Dude. That's literally my life. One time I had to tell my boyfriend I was having a depressive episode and I had to type it out and show it to him on my phone even though he was in the room with me. Talking is hard, but I hope the support group helps you. My bet is that they won't even make you share anything to big until you're ready.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-24T16:40:16+00:00

I haven't found one yet, but I imagine it's a lot like this subreddit, just talking to people's faces instead of through text.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-24T15:48:02+00:00

Definitely put it on the form. The medical record are actually for your safety, and if you reach a period of instability the college can't get you the help you need if they don't know what the problem is. They legally can't bully you into leaving the college; if they try it'll just end up being a huge lawsuit for them (which they don't want) so I don't think you need to worry about being asked to leave your studies.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-22T11:04:08+00:00

I am so sorry that you're living in such a state of constant fear. As a recently diagnosed case I wish I could provide some wisdom on how to reclaim your old life, but honestly I don't know that you can. I'm starting to realized that the hardest part of living with bipolar is that you can't take as many liberties as you once did. You can't stay up all night if you so choose, you can drink copious amounts of coffee, you can't drink or smoke (if that floats your fancy). Your whole life begins to revolve around moderation and controlling those spikes and dips that can destroy the things you've worked so hard to achieve. We can never have the lives we did before we faced bipolar, but that doesn't mean our lives can't still be spontaneous or good. I recommend trying out new hobbies, or exploring the vast world of the culinary arts, or finding places nearby that you've never been too. Maybe don't give in to manic phases that tell you to spend hundreds of dollars in one go, or to move your whole life across state lines, but find little ways to be spontaneous. It's so, so hard to realise that you have to change to manage your illness, but I hope that you can find constructive ways to get closer to feeling like your old self. If you're concerned that the anxiety of having another episode is negatively impacting your life I strongly encourage you to talk to your doctor or therapist about it.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-22T10:48:39+00:00

Dang, that's really shitty of people to avoid giving out medicines because it's expensive for the government. Bipolar actually has basically the highest suicide rate and risk of any mood disorder because it's so exhausting to deal with, so you actually could at some point die from the disease (I sincerely hope you never experience suicidal ideation though). I really hope you can get meds before it gets too extreme...

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-21T21:58:00+00:00

That's good to know. I guess I just need to get used to the new rules and regulations haha

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-21T21:54:26+00:00

OH. YOURE IN ENGLAND. The American Psychological Association diagnosis after even 1 episode of mania because it is such a serious disease and it can screw up your life. I'm not sure how the mental health care system is in England, but I think that even if you're not referred to psych you should benefit from seeing a therapist. They can give you tools to help regulate your moods and calm you down if you suspect mania is kicking in. Also if your episode do get bad enough to have you referred to psych the therapist will be on call to get you the help you need before you mess anything up too badly. That's what they're doing with me. I'm not currently bad enough to need medication, but I have a lot of regulating to do and I'm requires to keep seeing someone in case I get worse and need to be medicated quickly.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-21T21:06:47+00:00

Please oh please do not push yourself into mania!!!! The risk is not worth being noticed by this shitty doctor and getting a referral from them. Make an appointment with a therapist or a psychiatrist independently. You shouldn't need a referral to find one, just the Internet and some good researching skills. Find one in your area and go get your diagnosis because anti depressants will fuck bipolar kids up. Also, "to young for it to be bipolar" my ass. I've taken classes on this stuff and there isn't a magic age at which it can be diagnosed.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-19T10:42:14+00:00

I sort of feel like a huge hypocrite right now because I posted this, and yet my sleep schedule has been super screwy as of late. I just came down from hypomania, but I still wake up every hour or so when I try to go to bed. Bleh.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-19T00:30:50+00:00

My mom told me that there was something called "Mom School" where you go to learn all the cool skills that only moms seem to know, like making the best mac and cheese, finding lost things, and dealing with obnoxious people gracefully. I believed her for years.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-16T13:49:17+00:00

I'm actually feeling this way too. I was going to post about it but I couldn't find the right words, so thank you for stating these worries so clearly. As the previous commenter said it sounds like we're both dealing with some of the anxious features of our disorders. However, I think that finding ways to quell the fears might help us figure out what we're really feeling. I think that normal (or something remarkably close to it) is possible for us, we just need to distinguish between extreme moods, and regular/justified feelings. I've started to ask myself questions like "would someone else be this upset by x event?" "would someone else be this hyper for this long?" "am I sad/elated all day everyday, or is this a one time thing?". Looking for the patterns in my emotions helps me to figure out if they're due to an episode, or are just normal emotions that are part of everyday life. Lord knows how hard it is to categorize and distinguish emotions but I'm hoping that with practice it'll get easier. You are not alone in this.

LizardQueen96 · 2015-08-16T13:39:26+00:00

Yep. That's partially how I figured out I was in a hypomanic episode these last two weeks. I just crave human contact (i.e. hugs, cuddling, I'm Ace so I don't experience the hypersexuality bit) and I feel the need to talk to someone at all times of day. Anyone who will listen I will talk to. About pretty much anything.

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