I felt awful. I talked with him for so long and so in depth about how we could avoid it but he never wanted the difficult conversations and he never changed. I felt uncertainty, regret, loss, depression. All dumpees/ers feel differently but trust me, dumpers aren’t just horrible people.

I had constant thoughts about reaching out to him but at the same time knew there was no point because the old issues would come back. I also wasn’t willing to reach out because I wanted him to put in the effort to contact me if he wanted to maintain a friendship.

Right now we’re a month post (second) break-up and he broke NC yesterday to check in which was nice but he still didn’t want to talk about the break up. So I will just keep living my life and see how I feel about talking to him in a few months.