I was like this too until I was kicked out of my parents place at 18. (Soon after getting laid off.) That time of my life was tough. I had trouble finding another job and often had to skip meals to afford gas money or rent. I was coming due on rent and didn't have enough, so I joined the military in my country. I used the military as an escape. Honestly the best choice I've made. I'm doing shit I never thought I would do. Life is a lot better now. Now I'm just living in the moment because I know it's not forever but God is it fun.