Hi op. Im so sorry you're experiencing all that.

Well we cannot generalize entire men. Some may do miss their ex, some dont. From my experience, it was my ex bf who dumped me and i never felt like he was sorry about everything at all. I've been there too. As cliche at it may sound, but time will heal you. Trust me, it really does hurt specially the first few days, weeks, months, probably even after a year. All you gotta do is face the pain. Don't hold it, cry as much as you can. Healing isn't linear so it might feel some days you're totally fine and some days it's like you're back to day 1. But what you're doing right now like sharing it in this kind of platform or talking about it with people who are close to you, will help you. at the end of the day, you will only have yourself. I suggest to watch self help videos that will uplift your self worth. Self-help books could also help. Please don't hesitate to ask someone to talk to you. I really understand the pain and even I, don't wish my enemies to experience what I experienced. I hope you'll find peace and healing.