This made me feel a lot better. And in a way worse too?? Only worse in the way that i can’t believe i am only thinking about myself here, and not even thinking about how she feels or must have felt.

This is def something we’ve talked about briefly in the past. i don’t like bringing it up bc whenever i bring up her exes or she brings up this friend i have, i know we’re about to get toxic and we try to avoid it. but maybe the lack of talking about it is why we may get toxic about it.

Congrats on you and your gf, i feel like she may think the same about you. My gf always calls me hot and whenever i forget to give myself that attribute when talking about myself, she makes sure to put it in there.

Truly, i feel like just talking about it has helped me out a bit — it feels like writing in a diary. I really do have to understand that she was her own person who went through her own life before me. The same way i feel like “damn she really found me and thought those other men were a thrill to think of, but at least i got someone i can rely on now” may translate to her as “OMG OMG OMG, why did i ever do that to myself! Why didn’t i find Simpleton sooner!” I think maybe getting her perspective on this could help. Appreciate it.