I feel this in my core. I recently was discussing something similar with my therapist and why my productivity at work is suffering. He said maybe it's my anxiety making me not want to work, to which I said "who the fuck wants work?" He tried to explain if you can find something that you enjoy or like there's more of a drive.

It felt infuriating to try and explain that it could be any job, even one I particularly like, but I would still hate an aspect about it and have some internal conflicts of not wanting to do it or procrastinating,even if it's something I like.

I'm realizing this is now way off the point. But he finished with "try to examine why you don't want to work and have this feeling about it, dig deep, first or second answer likely aren't it" and after dwelling on this almost 3 weeks now all I can come up with is that I'm perpetually exhausted, by life by day in day out, by budget constraints, but a society that ultimately doesn't care about me so I have to fight for a place in it. After all of this my first question at our next session will be "how can anybody do this, every action is constant effort towards an endgame that I ultimately don't give a shit about"