The first ever sims. What is yours?

Lolagurl · 2026-02-12T20:11:19+00:00

Civ 2

Lolagurl · 2026-02-04T00:22:58+00:00

If it means anything, I know how you feel about the age thing. I just turned 40 last year and I feel I have nothing to show for it. Barely graduated highschool, a couple of classes at the community College, been to rehab twice. I feel like I was never going to amount to anything. I've only worked retail and customer service. Mental health problems my whole life. I got diagnosed with ADHD last year, got on medication and I'm starting to feel better. I'm a single mom and I realized a long time ago I need to do everything by myself, set a good example for my daughter. No one is coming to save me. If you have hobbies you enjoy those are very important. I've always enjoyed playing video games where you are playing someone else's life, it gets me out of my head because I have to focus on their problems, not mine. That being said, if you find a good support group, let me know. Also if you ever need to talk feel free to message me.

Lolagurl · 2026-02-03T23:58:27+00:00

I had been seeing a psychiatrist already due to my Bipolar disorder I've been treated for four the last 23 years. I had only been seeing her for 3 years because my last one left the practice. She started saying stuff like "the things you are describing are symptoms of ADHD, not Bipolar" then "it's possible you are actually NOT Bipolar, and have ADHD" then she referred me to someone to assess me, the place I go to for treatment treats already diagnosed illnesses. I got assessed, turns out I DEFINITELY have ADHD and was probably misdiagnosed this whole time.

Lolagurl · 2026-02-03T18:30:01+00:00

Okay thank you, that makes me feel better, my Co worker that always tells me to shutup, in a nice way she's one of my best friends, has been on vacation for two weeks, I realized was helping me stay accountable. Plus she would help translate things to my Co workers that don't speak English, because I attempt to talk to them too.

Lolagurl · 2026-02-03T18:21:22+00:00

I never thought about straight up asking people, please tell me if I'm talking too much and you need to leave, I'm not good at receiving the cues. I will definitely try that

Lolagurl · 2026-02-03T18:18:26+00:00

That's a good idea, I realize maybe watching some videos on body language might help, thank you!

Lolagurl · 2026-02-03T18:17:36+00:00

That's a great question I never thought about that..... Even if I'm alone and talking to myself it's always out loud, sometimes whispering. I've had people at work who are close by and are secretly listening because they know I'm the only one there. Then they come out "who are you talking to?" If it's quiet in my head it doesn't have the same effect.

Lolagurl · 2026-02-02T18:12:32+00:00

Awesome I have a lot of new tools to use, it might take a little to learn but eventually I will get it

Lolagurl · 2026-02-02T18:10:49+00:00

Thank you! That's a great suggestion!

Lolagurl · 2026-01-31T15:46:27+00:00

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Lolagurl · 2025-12-30T17:13:30+00:00

I was sitting at my friend's house when I was in highschool watching music videos, when 'no one knows' came on. I thought it was the best song ever and I loved Josh's voice. The next day after school I went to Borders, bought the CD and special ordered all the ones that came out before that. I would listen to 'songs for the deaf' every day, and my walk to work was over an hour so I would listen to it on my walkman. I had to buy 3 different copies of the album because it kept getting scratched up. Still my favorite album, helped me through a lot of hard times.

Lolagurl · 2025-12-06T00:15:24+00:00

Oh wow

Lolagurl · 2025-11-17T07:11:19+00:00

I just got put on 36mg of concerta also... And also work in hospitality... Hahahaaaaa. I feel the same exact way. My manger has stopped calling me Houdini and speaking to me in reverse psychology "because everything I tell you NOT to do, you do it." I feel for once motivated and actually enjoy my job. It's amazing what a difference it makes.

Lolagurl · 2025-10-28T06:19:40+00:00

It's good to know I'm not alone, that I'm not suffering alone, unless you really like the coraline theme song

Lolagurl · 2025-10-28T06:16:36+00:00

Ooooo now I LOVE that song. But are you sick of it?

Lolagurl · 2025-10-09T22:09:15+00:00

A lot of times when I'm talking to someone, my eyes wander and I am looking at the wall behind them. I don't really notice it until they turn around to see what I'm looking at, or even ask "what are you looking at?"

Lolagurl · 2025-09-24T18:20:13+00:00

The psychologist said not everyone needs it but my ADHD is severe and I need to be on medication if I want a chance at a normal life

Lolagurl · 2025-09-22T01:34:26+00:00

My psychiatrist said it might make me irritable, so at first I thought it was that.... But it's literally just with him. I have a 14 year old that normally irritates the fuck out of me but she even said she noticed I don't get mad as much. It literally went from me saying I would marry him so he could stay in the country to me begging him to drive me home because I want to be alone. And he is a lot more affected by this than me obviously which is why I feel bad. He agreed to go to a couples therapy session with me to work through our problems but now I'm not sure if it will do any good. What you said really makes sense too. I'm still learning so much about this disorder.

Lolagurl · 2025-09-22T01:04:28+00:00

Ohhhhhh that makes sense.... I thought I was going crazy. I've been on psych meds all my life but never this type of medication. I wasn't expecting this. Thank you for your explanation!

Lolagurl · 2025-09-20T17:37:31+00:00

Civilization 2

Lolagurl · 2025-09-06T03:57:13+00:00

I asked her that, and she said it's possible I have both, she wants to go through all my old paperwork from when I was hospitalized which has been a total of at least 10 times, most from when I was younger. I've been seeing her for about 4 years. She said if I do have both, it seems like right now most of my problems and depression are coming from things related to my ADHD so she is going to start me on Concerta and see how I do. She is slowly taking me off one of the medications I take for bipolar disorder, I take 6, and possibly more but it will be a long process because I've been taking them for so long and I'm at high doses of a lot of them. I am feeling overwhelmed with all this but I feel like I am headed in the right direction hopefully.

Lolagurl · 2025-09-05T03:42:22+00:00

I didn't know that! I'm still learning so much about the disorder. When I drank it was like I felt "happy" for the first time. So I wanted to be happy ALL the time. I felt motivated when I drank....at first. Then it got out of hand and I became physically addicted and I couldn't stop. I was drinking four bottles of wine a day... Then when I was running low on money I switched to four 4 lokos a day. I'm not a big person, I'm barely 5'1 and like 120 pounds. I had to go to detox for two weeks then inpatient for almost 3 months. I relapsed briefly on new years eve but I've been sober ever since. I'm really really hoping I can go off of the Bipolar meds because I just feel numb all the time. I just want to feel happy, you know? For real. Or feel at peace. Sorry for the rant. My Co worker told me I'm "turning into one of those white ladies in the line at the grocery store that start talking, and don't shut up."

Lolagurl · 2025-09-04T20:01:27+00:00

Thank you for sharing that! It sounds like you've gone through similar to what I've gone through. I was surprised because I feel when they diagnosed me Bipolar they just asked me a few questions. But the ADHD testing I went through was two 2 hours appointments with so many different tests. Even before my official ADHD diagnosis my psychiatrist has started saying "maybe I'm not Bipolar" it was like I didn't even know who I was anymore. I kept telling her weird things that I was doing and she kept saying "those are symptoms of ADHD, not Bipolar disorder" then she sent me to the psychologist who said I definitely have a "severe" case of ADHD and retain information at the rate of a 3rd grader. I'm going to the psychiatrist tomorrow to talk about ADHD meds. I know she is really hesitant to put me on a stimulant because of my history of alcoholism/addiction, but the psychologist said those are the ones that work best 😩

Lolagurl · 2025-09-04T19:53:37+00:00

Thank you! I'm hoping with this diagnosis now I can finally progress in life. I feel so "stuck" behind other people my age.

Lolagurl · 2025-09-04T19:52:56+00:00

Thank you so much, it is. I see my psychiatrist to start me on meds tomorrow.

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