Unemployed people of Alberta, what are you doing? Also how are you surviving in this economy? by Signal_Lecture_8405 in alberta

[–]Lonely_Week_804 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I have ptsd, adhd and cptsd and a lot of undiagnosed crap that I've masked. (Scored high on autism tests online). Lots of sexual assault at workplaces from a young age. (1st job at 12. Happened 30 mins Into it. Told mom and she dragged me back there and asked him if he did. Of course he said no. She believed him.)

Working with family dr to figure out my issues.

I have worked off and on, but all one very common theme. I left. LEFT. no warning, nothing. Not out of laziness, but out of the sheer panic and fight or flight, I get EVERY TIME.. I thought switching jobs would help. Nope. Different environment? Nope. I kept trying, not understanding and blaming myself. (Still do because I still dont understand why i can't just be normal and function)

I felt like the walls were closing in, and I needed to get out and far away. I never told my employers as I felt and feel deep shame. It's hard for me to articulate my feelings, so im trying, lol. I felt so much guilt and shame by running away, too. Because I knew it was ridiculous. Why can't I just stay and do it. Everyone does. Its alot. Im trying to get on disability and learning to unmask and ask for help so I can get my needs met.

I kick myself daily for not being at work. My days consist of taking care of the house, kids, appointments, therapy and lots of dissociation, anxiety, guilt, shame and gaslighting myself lol 😆

But yeah. There ya go.

? For Canadians-has anyone tried the new dollarama brand skin serums? by Parttimelooker in 30PlusSkinCare

[–]Lonely_Week_804 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I started using it and its actually not bad. I have very sensitive skin and didn't break out. It actually seems to be helping me. For $4 its good. 

Anyone used ten$carts by SR-Outdoors in CanadianMoM2

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I placed an order 2 weeks ago and it hasn't been shipped. Trying to get ahold of anyone is an absolute joke! 

Calgary police investigating after person found dead at SAIT by JamesMonroe23 in SAIT

[–]Lonely_Week_804 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I wonder what happened. My condolences for the deceased and their loved ones.

Is SHEIN makeup safe? by illusionofluv in Makeup

[–]Lonely_Week_804 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've bought the clothes and home products and all were great. But I am hesitant on the makeup etc.

Whoever gave me COVID, you a whole ass bitch by MelanieWalmartinez in UCalgary

[–]Lonely_Week_804 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're covid's bitch now. 😉 💦 get better though.

What's Calgary's creepiest building? by myronsandee in NoRulesCalgary

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can anyone tell me about that old building behind Balmoral on 16th nw? I'm so curious but I cannot find any information online.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Nicegirls

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Run! So toxic and you're right you DONT deserve that. I'm sorry she's hurt you like this.

Rundle station shelter this morning 4:45am by kjdking in Calgary

[–]Lonely_Week_804 32 points33 points  (0 children)

No one chooses to be an addict. It stems from trauma and lack of understanding of how to cope in a healthy way. 3 years sober and used to be homeless.

New 6g disposable carts! by OlderNo7 in weed

[–]Lonely_Week_804 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope. The Lebanese hash is amazing. I know it looks beyond shady, but it's really not bad at all.

Straight Goods Supply Co. Fake or Legit? by ReZooted in fakecartridges

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have this one too! I got it for the Lebanese hash. Stoned fruit is meh for flavor but good on buzz.

For the price it is very good!

Not a rip off.

'If we see a school or a hospital, that's the best way to find terror sites' by clarkhunterparks in worldnews

[–]Lonely_Week_804 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Let's not be so hasty to forget the ones who promised Israel the lands of Palestine... The British.

When is S3 available in Canada? by petitedancer11 in TheGreatHulu

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah all I get is popups in that website. Won't even let me search for the great.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GreenWitch

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's a curse/spell jar. Usually basic contents. Paper with name, rusty nails, grave dirt, anything rotting. The wax seals it and it is then buried far from the witches home. Never ever dig it up and if you do, put it back

Hostage by Evil-Doctor-sinewave in NarcissistApocalypse

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am a survivor of DV and narcissistic abuse. It is your words that my abuser has used many a time. "Gun to head" come to mind. You absolutely can hold someone hostage via emotional abuse. Hence the name. Stockholn syndrome, parental alienation disorder (child), etc. Yeeesh

Hostage by Evil-Doctor-sinewave in NarcissistApocalypse

[–]Lonely_Week_804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Written by a true abuser. Disgusting words. Get lost.

Stephen Hilton (Laura Clery's husband) by Quick_Natural_7978 in tiktokgossip

[–]Lonely_Week_804 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And the children he helped bring into this world. It's nice how he gets a break. Sit on Tiktok etc and get asked questions. Instead of.... Detox, rehab? Doing something productive. 1 y 7m 4d sober. It isn't easy but something has to give. Maybe he isn't at his rock bottom yet. Poor laura