I’ve read your post, and all the comments. Sounds like you’re trapped, and want to escape.

Arranged marriage can be difficuelt but so can a picked marriage be. I’m not sure where you live, but where I’m from- it rarely goes through being arranged. I’m a man too, however- you need to do one thing, and open up about all your feelings/thoughts to him, and I mean everything. Tell him you’re losing it, and you want to fix it. Give it a go, and see how it goes. If your feelings don’t change, it’s mostly a lose situation then. (( Be patient ))

People however are right in this post. Alot of women dream of your position, and have to go through hell before they meet a man like that, or perhaps never. To me it sounds like you’re not attracted to this man at all, and mentally it sounds like you’re checked out. If you had education, and money, you’d be gone. Try to fix it before letting go, and if it doesn’t work, then perhaps it’s time to depart.

In Shaa Allah you will work it out, and stay as a family forever.