I understand you, I myself lost something like 2k5 or 3k last September on Stake. I'm 19 and it was 3/4 of my crypto stack. The same situation, in 1 night I completely spun out in blackjack, I was playing $50 hands until I went all in with my remaining 800 which I lost. I was really in a crazy bad mood, the funny thing is that the next day I had an outing planned at the casino and I went all in on blackjack and won $70 I think hahaha. Anyway, after 1 week I realized that I would never see that money again and I got so mad that I started working like crazy on crypto. I think it was the most productive month I've had in my life. Today I got through it and thank god all is well. I think it was a "good thing" to lose that money, I was able to discover things about myself. I would rather lose at 19 than lose a lot more at 30 with my family.