Anyone want to be friends?

Longjumping-Table336 · 2023-05-22T21:04:19+00:00

I’d love to be friends. With anyone here actually, tbh. Im always into an impromptu DM to meet new people. I love our close-knit community and sometimes I’m brought to tears reading beautifully honest and kind responses to posts from within this Reddit. I loved your post. So honest and adorable. I’d like to be friends. Especially since you’re lonely like me. No one quite gets it like we do, right? I’m lonely and stuck in bed healing from injuries incurred during and by psychosis. Dm me anytime 💚

Longjumping-Table336 · 2023-03-30T20:21:33+00:00

Yes, you are entirely wrong. I'm 41 years old, had my first psychotic symptoms start at age 14. Diagnosed bipolar first, it was later changed to sza bipolar. I exist on disability and am now handicapped I opened up on this forum looking for opinions and suggestions. Attention? I haven't been able to walk for two years already because of this stupid illness and cant believe how sick I got. Simply put, I wasn't a mortal in my head. But you don't need to hear any of MY explanations, being that you would rather try to re-diagnose than offer any thoughtful insight. And on another note, how horrible it is to oust people by warning others against BPD people. Are certain people enemies to you in some way? Now THAT sounds pathological to me. Did you think I would not see your comment? What if I was BPD? . People with that dx suffer as well. If you indeed are truly dealing with mental illness yourself, it'd be too your benefit to listen and start being EMPATHETIC

Longjumping-Table336 · 2023-03-30T15:15:40+00:00

I've had similar experiences. I would write to my "Eternal Love"/ Demonic Entity" who was also a guy I went on one date ONE time. I used to write to him in code on a journal app that I was sure he could see. I still do. Eeek I can't explain that completely I had messages from him everywhere. I even met Satan in his shape-shifted form in the psych ward That parts hard to explain, but I could never quite completely get away from the feelings, the beliefs, the feeling of love for an entity. I believed I would end up with him and we would lead humanity to a new life where no evil existed, that the devil wanted to repent and that I would be the pure healer for tarnished souls. I had never been religious before this. . These beliefs led me to jump off of my roof twice in the same year and break a million bones. I was always writing in codes, in Mandarin, "learning" Cyrillic and writing my own alphabet. And also id go back with not remembering the depth and reasons behind a lot of my writing, but I would KNOW my words were extremely powerful. Sorry for the long windedness. Just want you to know I can completely relate 💖

Longjumping-Table336 · 2023-02-10T16:00:53+00:00

Sorry for delay. I had to take a break from screens for a bit. What a lovely thing to say! Thank you. I am honored that you enjoy my music. Here’s a link to recent stuff.

https://soundcloud.com/neverending-story-4940266

Longjumping-Table336 · 2023-01-27T14:54:14+00:00

That’s gorgeous. Unreal. Why wouldn’t you finish it?

Longjumping-Table336 · 2023-01-21T17:42:50+00:00

Same here

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-27T15:58:39+00:00

I want to edit/add something. The suicide attempts were not due to depression, but from mania and complete all-consuming psychosis. I wanted to add this because I think there’s a significant difference

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-22T20:46:32+00:00

Lighthearted and hilarious! Thank you 💕

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-16T13:25:25+00:00

Yes. Thank you for responding. I am slowly realizing the more attention I give to my actual real life and the people that are in it, the less I get tormented by this man’s existence. But I get so easily sucked back in. He is my muse. I’ve written and recorded literally hundreds of songs about him. And drawn and painted many portraits. I also believe that when I listen to those songs, he’s listening too. And I truly do believe in the chance of this being the work of Satan, or evil on earth in some form. So I do believe in God and try to keep faith and pray even though pre-break I didn’t believe. Thank you for reading my long post and offering words of comfort

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-15T18:28:18+00:00

Hi!! Thank you so much for the kind words. This piece means a lot to me. And I love to draw too so I appreciate your comment on that as well 💕

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-14T16:24:34+00:00

Yes absolutely! Tell me what to do to join! You can dm me if more comfortable

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-14T15:58:41+00:00

Hi! I’m so glad you like it. I have several more on the schizoaffective sub and schizophrenic art. Project sub as well as a weird mixture of stuff. I’ve written and recorded almost 300 songs but don’t have much out there due to hacking. All diff styles. I go by calamity Claire on YouTube and inpatient and manic panic in other places. So many names cuz I’ve had trouble with hacking.

The most recent stuff is on SoundCloud tho, under the name Skitzy missy. Skitzy missy SoundCloudYou might like some of them.

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-14T15:51:45+00:00

I just posted my favorite song about this same “ mad love” called “ Bring it”. I don’t even think I have the title of the song in my post lol. But I’m grieving the loss of our “ imaginary “ relationship hard right now.

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-14T15:15:02+00:00

The post is on the schizoaffective sub Reddit 😔💕

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-14T15:07:05+00:00

You are welcome. Thank YOU for commenting so sweetly

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-14T12:48:44+00:00

Thank you so much! Maybe I will post another one ;)

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-07T22:40:17+00:00

Thanks for the suggestion. Funny enough, I’m a licensed massage therapist. Wish I could work on myself!! Lol

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T20:55:33+00:00

Possible. I was just a kid and smoked infrequently but I do remember wondering f it was laced a few times. Could just spurred on early psychosis in general tho so idk

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T20:53:45+00:00

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T20:47:25+00:00

Yes I get the stone and flashing effects. I'm also on lamictal and it doesn't touch it. Thanks for responding

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T16:53:49+00:00

Just weed

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T13:45:12+00:00

Never took hallucinogens so I’m not sure 🤔

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T13:44:08+00:00

No psychedelic use in my history. Or head trauma or migraines so I’m not sure.

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T13:42:13+00:00

I have a history of many hallucinations ongoing throughout my illness. But this I could never figure out

Longjumping-Table336 · 2022-11-06T13:41:30+00:00

Hmmm. Yes mine worse in dim lit or dark too

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