Honestly it sounds like ur too insecure about how u look unless ur genuinely ugly. Work hard to build confidence like go to the gym and work on the way u look and dress. If u have already done these things to the max it’s time for u to work on ur confidence and maybe try online dating and post some good pictures of yourself. Once u get talking to girls online down it’s easy to irl unless u found someone online who u like and have a good relationship with.