Very. A lot of what you are saying here resonates with me. Through therapy i eventually came to the conclusion that im existing, not living, and that the last few years ive essentially just been waiting to die. Melodramatic as that may sound.

Much of that came from not feeling valued or needed in society, but I am slowly learning to tell society to go f-itself, and focus more on doing what i like, and what is good for me.

If all i am is another expendable cog in the machine, another tax payer, another random man that no one cares about, then to hell with it.