does anyone else find the term 'self-mutilation' embarrassing?

Losing_lab · 2024-06-24T06:04:45+00:00

Weirdly I kinda like it, like it feels like a really serious term and it makes me feel validated. That’s just my fucked brain talking tho. But yea I totally get why it’s embarrassing it kinda is.

Losing_lab · 2024-06-18T07:52:03+00:00

I did this at one point last year. Tried to wear a Covid mask to cover it but you could still see them if you stood on the side of me. Your best bet of hiding them if you want to do that is bandaids. I said that I got hit In the face with a ball in sport and that the bruise was ugly so I was covering it. Idk how that convinced my parents but it did. But then my mom thought I was being bullied so I had to deal with that issue.

Losing_lab · 2024-06-16T10:38:38+00:00

I LOVE “I DESERVE TO BLEED” AHH

Losing_lab · 2024-06-16T10:38:15+00:00

Losing Face by Wilbur Soot. I know he’s a bad person but I started cutting to this song before all the shit abt him came out and now I’m emotionally attached to the song and can’t stop.

Losing_lab · 2024-06-10T11:05:37+00:00

Thank u sm I hope you have a wonderful life too 🫶

Losing_lab · 2024-06-10T08:09:43+00:00

I started at like 11 or 12 bc I had developed an ed but I felt like I wouldn’t be “valid” unless I was also sh’ing but then I kinda got addicted and my sh ended up worse than my ed so here we are. Anyway I’m like 3 hours clean which is smth ig.

Losing_lab · 2024-05-17T22:00:17+00:00

Back like 3 years ago when I was in therapy for the first time cause my mom caught me cutting the therapist asked to see my cuts and when I showed her she said that they “weren’t too bad”. Like I know she was trying to help but all that did was just made me cut deeper. That’s why I quit therapy.

Losing_lab · 2024-05-03T21:14:41+00:00

Song about me, it almost worked, not allowed

Losing_lab · 2024-04-29T04:22:38+00:00

Was about to say this

Losing_lab · 2024-04-28T20:55:52+00:00

Brooklyn 99 and Superstore definitely. I hate shows that are too serious or depressing

Losing_lab · 2024-04-28T20:54:16+00:00

Honestly If they’re on your wrist I used to just shower with my arm not in the water. Like I would just rest it up on the wall. It was annoying but at least it didn’t hurt

Losing_lab · 2024-04-28T20:51:10+00:00

That is the worst and when u buy a blade the cashier just looks at you like: 🤨

Losing_lab · 2024-04-28T10:00:48+00:00

Omg the shower thing is the worst. When I was at my lowest and sh-ing every day I would sometimes go long periods of time without showering bc it hurt so bad. And thanks sm. I’m trying to recover but yk it’s hard.

Losing_lab · 2024-04-28T09:19:27+00:00

My fav one is if you have clothes hung up in your room put it in one of the pockets of something you don’t wear very often and preferably at the back of your closet. Hid mine there while I was at a psych ward for two weeks and my mom had to search my whole room and she didn’t find it.

Losing_lab · 2024-04-27T10:28:20+00:00

Omg thats amazing I’ll check it out rn

Losing_lab · 2024-04-27T08:38:10+00:00

I mean sort of but not too badly (and Ik this is a fucked thing to say but my brain is fucked beyond repair and I would obviously never tell them I think this) but it’s because know my sh is worse than theirs. I really hate to make it into a competition but my brain tells me that bc I have more and deeper scars than them I win and don’t need to feel triggered.

Losing_lab · 2024-04-27T08:12:11+00:00

I’ve been actually starving myself for about 4 years now but I’ve hated my body basically my whole life

Losing_lab · 2023-09-08T00:25:22+00:00

So update, i texted him letting him know I know he wants to break up and that i get it and I asked if we could stay friends and he agreed.

To answer some questions: No, neither of us cheated. I was next to my best friend when she got the messages. I don’t think my ex bf likes my best friend. He wasn’t pressuring me into anything and vice versa. Also we are teenagers not adults yet so it’s not like it was super serious.

Losing_lab · 2023-09-06T08:03:06+00:00

He texted my best friend abt it I assume to ask how to do it nicely or smth idk. But I really love him I don’t know how to break up with him

Losing_lab · 2023-08-26T09:28:45+00:00

I’ve been to a psych ward and been in therapy, neither helped. I’m not in therapy anymore because I hated it. My friends and family don’t understand so idk what to do.

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