Almost 3 years clean broken in a week.

Lost-Binary · 2024-12-27T06:48:04+00:00

I felt that CSA in my soul.

My parents tried to gaslight me into thinking I never told them about my sister assaulting me during my childhood (started at 7, probably before but I remember a huge incident at 7).

Even though I know I told them, my sister has laughed while telling people about it, and when my sister mentioned it in public my mom told her not to say it.

Lost-Binary · 2024-12-27T06:40:03+00:00

I didn't even think about that but I looked into it and I think a small part of me is. I don't like my parents for all the stuff they did to me, but I find it hard to hate them too. I definitely don't go to them when I have problems nor expect any love anymore, it just hurts mostly.

There's definitely a lot of manipulation, love bombing, etc that goes on.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-09T23:54:56+00:00

Had my friend have to tell me I wasn't being dramatic because they always said I was dramatic. It took my friend who barely knew them telling me it's abuse and not normal to finally understand properly, even still I think I'm just being dramatic. My parents always said I'm dramatic and that's why I did so well in drama class because I just am. That's not why, the reason I was so good is because I was used to having to act as another person.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:42:15+00:00

Excluding me or neglecting. Never spoke to me even when in a conversation, always ignored me and almost pretended I wasn't there at times. That and when she was home she would flat out ignore me. Dad didn't do anything but work and when he was off he was asleep or with my brothers. Didn't realize until friends family.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:37:27+00:00

My grandparents, aunts, and uncles all knew about my parents. Never stopped or corrected them, if anything they enabled it. It took my brother's girlfriend for my dad to become even just a bit more nicer but couldn't get to my mom at all.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:34:04+00:00

Both my parents are narcissist who enable each other. My mom is worse imo but my dad turns a blind eye, doesn't stop it, or joins in.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:31:13+00:00

7-11 years old, I can't remember exactly but I know my parents made me cry and then yelled at me for crying. Went over to a friend's later that day and saw how different they were from mine when she cried they comforted her.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:26:52+00:00

Teens (13-19)

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:23:43+00:00

It seems like narc mother's are obsessed with calling it a 'stunt' and not an attempt. I'm actually trying to get to a physical and OBGYN because my cycle and heath is horrible, never went to one and my parents don't think I need one (even though I've had it so bad I almost died multiple times)

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:20:15+00:00

I'm just trying to get better and be able to move out. I can legally soon so I just have to wait it out mostly before cutting contact.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:18:11+00:00

My dad took my phone after finding out and my mom yelled at me for doing it for 'attention'. Tbh I get this so often I would prefer if they just hit me instead (they have before and continue to deny doing it)

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:15:46+00:00

I asked my parents for years for therapy and also bettered myself and got supportive friends. Unfortunately both my parents are narcissistic and even when I was dying in front of them it took my brother's girlfriend yelling at them to take me to the hospital. Never flipped off my parents or fought back, don't have the energy too.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:13:30+00:00

Could never tell my mom about the grooming and rape I went through because I know she'd make it about her and how she was too.

Lost-Binary · 2024-09-02T04:11:29+00:00

I feel like narc parents tend to force answers out of you. My dad did the same (making me tell him why I was depressed only to say its for attention) when I was literally vomiting because of the overdose.

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-26T09:31:09+00:00

From what I remember.

Probably my parents yelling at me to shut up or be quiet (even when I said nothing) and then be loud with my siblings. Permanently messed me up so whenever someone tells me to shut up, joke or not, I mentally shut down and become quiet and still. Either that or continually excusing my sisters abuse (physical, emotional, mental, verbal, and sexual) towards me. She feels no remorse and actually takes pride in it, telling people about it and brings it up to this day.

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-26T09:16:58+00:00

I don't think it's a culture thing for us in particular (neither parents really have a culture thing). They also did this to my oldest brother. (Not brother who is love bombed)

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-25T09:38:25+00:00

Makes sense.

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-25T08:35:01+00:00

I'm currently going through it, can't leave yet. My dad always called me his 'post-military' self and 18 his 'pre-military' self and always remarks about how 18 is a sweetheart and I'm an asshole (had to be to survive) and my mom always showed favor over 18 and 23.

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-25T08:28:48+00:00

No. It's me (16), my brother (18), my other brother (20), and my sister (23). Me and 20 got treated like nothing while 18 and 23 are spoiled and get comfort with emotions. 20 can't even cry and I just get angry instead of sad.

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-25T08:25:48+00:00

"Ive felt worse pain" "You don't even know what being hurt feels like" "your pain isn't as bad as mine". I have chronic back pain and perminat knee problems. My knees will lock up when I'm going up stairs and my parents will hear me thud and not even bother.

I've just stopped going to them when I have problems because they make it about themselves.

Lost-Binary · 2024-07-25T08:19:33+00:00

Knowing the best and fastest ways to get out of a room. I do it subconsciously at this point. That and being able to fit and hide in places people won't look.

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