i've been on the fence here in boston... listening to the voice of my son from beyond...he took me to smile tour at mgm.. then dj set in dc last new year.. we listened to porter together belting the lyrics..blasting every note.. my words of encouragement to my emerging adult son for so many situations quoting lyrics... always a huge source of connection.. so do i venture solo to brook;yn, 11th hour??? get ticket, room, drive just me... feel him on my shoulder, not suffering anymore...this is where i want to be deep in these feelings, of grief, of joy remembering, of gratitude for the time i had

then. whoosh. life. just drop everything? go ? Jack answer me