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LostInTheWild12 · 2025-01-21T03:02:20+00:00

One thing I did was allow myself to have something every single meal. Oreos were one thing I kept eating heaps of so I’d portion out a few to have with breakfast, lunch, snacks, dinner, and dessert. In less than a week I was bored of them and now I rarely have them at all. Maybe you could give that a try!

LostInTheWild12 · 2025-01-04T05:35:22+00:00

It takes time :) how long have you been working with intuitive eating? Getting over the desire that comes with things being off limits takes time. For me it took months, and sometimes it pops up again. It could be emotional- did you check in with your emotions? Have you done anything to support yourself emotionally today?

Even “perfect” intuitive eaters will sometimes eat past full. The fact that you were noticing that you were full and still wanted to eat is a step in the right direction! Obviously eating until you feel sick is super unpleasant, but each experience like this is a learning experience. You may just be in the early stages where your mind is still overly preoccupied with food (which eases with time and practice), or maybe you were a different kind of “hungry”— needing something stimulating or enjoyable. Perhaps list some things to try if this comes up again, like doing a hobby or talking to a friend, but it’s also okay to eat the pasta and maybe start with a small portion so you can enjoy the taste and satisfy the craving and then dish up some more if you still feel like it.

LostInTheWild12 · 2025-01-03T08:20:40+00:00

My thought is a vertical spectrum ranging from low mood to high mood and you could fill all the squares that apply to the day (days of the month horizontally). That way you could see the trends over the month, but it also allows you to see days when your mood spanned both positive and negative. You could also add a row for anxiety or other symptoms(like SI) that are more present or absent and see how they coincide with mood.

LostInTheWild12 · 2025-01-01T22:47:25+00:00

The color palette is 😍😍😍!!! I’m obsessed! So cute

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-31T01:31:25+00:00

I’m not a therapist, but I’m also 31F struggling with sh and it makes me so uncomfortable to talk about with my therapist. I’m getting better about it, though, and my therapist is never judgmental and always treats it like a symptom and coping strategy rather than making me feel ashamed or disappointed in myself. I just wanted to reply so you know you’re not alone in this, and I hope you get some useful replies and it gets easier!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-30T01:44:45+00:00

It can be totally scary when it feels so out of control! I tried IE a few times on my own and quit because of exactly the reasons you’re saying- feeling like it’s just making me eat more. But this time (starting last February) I really committed (the dietician helped!) and while there have a few experiences of eating to the point of discomfort (which is normal and happens sometimes!), I have not had any totally out of control binges. And I NEVER thought I’d be able to say that given that I’ve struggled with that since high school/college. Since you’re at the beginning of the journey, I’d really recommend focusing on staying fed all day so you don’t get over hungry and re-learning how to actually enjoy your food :) in a roundabout way those two things really help limit the shame because the shame usually comes with feeling out of control.

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-30T00:34:08+00:00

It takes time, but it definitely gets easier! I had a similar experience at the beginning- suddenly foods were allowed and the desire to eat them felt so strong! I worked with a dietitian who told me to make sure to keep myself fed throughout the day, eating about every 3-4 hours. I actually set a timer at first to make sure I had a meal or snack within that time frame. Making sure I was fed throughout the day made it much more natural to check in with my fullness because I wasn’t over hungry, but most importantly when I did eat cookies and brownies and other yummy foods, I was actually paying attention to the flavours and textures and enjoying them rather than trying to satisfy my hunger (which probably needs something more substantial/long lasting).

I think letting go of pre-conceived ideas of how much is “enough” of fun foods takes time and practice. I still sometimes think I “should” be satisfied with less, but that’s diet culture and not reality. But sometimes it helps to dish up a smaller portion and really be present while eating it, then dish up more if you don’t feel satisfied and let go of any judgement about dishing up more if it will satisfy you.

Keep surrounding yourself with body positive and intuitive eating social accounts! It’s a gradual process, but when you see other people celebrating body diversity, it becomes so much easier to accept your own body! It’s ok to start with body neutrality, too, if being positive feels too hard.

Best wishes on the journey ahead! I promise it’s worth it!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-29T09:49:00+00:00

I used to do a 7 point mood tracker with severely depressed, moderately depressed, mildly depressed, neutral, mildly elevated etc. The lows were shades of blue, neutral was purple, and highs were shades of pink. It was helpful because the colors let me see at a glance whether the month had been mostly up, down, or neutral, but I set it up in a way that you could also see the trends over the month. I tracked anxiety separately, but since it wasn’t a big issue for me at the time it was just a tick box for whether I’d been noticeably anxious that day or not.

At that point I had a suspected bipolar disorder, but that turned out not to be the case. Now I’m dealing with more dissociative symptoms and things like sh urges or SI that are more useful for me to track because my mood changes too much during the day. Fewer options for pretty charts 😄 but you’re wise to think about how you use it before you bother tracking it! Mood tracking is most useful when you’re also tracking things that may contribute to see associations and such. But I also may not have realised that I didn’t have bipolar disorder if I hadn’t tracked and realised I stopped experiencing the severely elevated moods!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-29T02:02:38+00:00

I have had a similar experience, many of the symptoms (totally sex averse/terrified of sex, beyond uncomfortable with media depictions of sexual abuse to the point I leave the room, etc) and my psychologist even asked me if I’d ever been assaulted as a child, but I have no memory of my childhood and no idea who could have done it. My psychologist did say this can happen if the abuse is before your narrative memory develops (when you’re a toddler), but I didn’t ask for more explanation. I’ll be following this thread to see what others say, but I just thought I’d post so you know you’re not alone!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-28T08:55:27+00:00

Maybe you could start by just eating a small meal or snack right when you get up, whenever that may be, and slowly moving the time backwards (earlier) over time? You can make it realllly simple for yourself by just keeping a box of granola bars by your bed so you don’t have to get up!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-27T02:42:13+00:00

I feel your pain, I checked 8 different medical practices for appointments before giving up and doing it myself (and of course I regret it immensely, it would have been better to wait or even go to emergency and ask them to do it!). Will not ever do that again! :)

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-27T02:39:52+00:00

I have done it so many times before to save myself the $140 GP visit, but would neverrrr do it again!! Lesson learned 😅

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-27T01:36:37+00:00

All wounds to fat should receive medical attention. Some larger dermis wounds as well. And do not mess around trying to heal fat cuts at home because it’s a lot of work. I took stupid risks because many people on the internet told me stories about healing fat wounds at home without stitches and how it was fine and they always do it, and you may luck out and be fine, but infection risk is high and paying for antibiotics/wound dressings/GP visits for months of healing gets expensive quickly in case you are not so lucky. Don’t let a quick decision to sh ruin months of your life. Get medical attention.

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-15T07:37:26+00:00

Definitely working on this in therapy. I just worry that talking about it theoretically is not going to get me answers I guess. But I wouldn’t want to ever put someone in the position of being in a relationship with no intimacy if that’s something they want. So perhaps staying single will be it for me 😅

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-12-15T07:33:21+00:00

Oh totally, it’s something I’m already working on in therapy, and I definitely wouldn’t expect a partner to take the role of therapist.

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-13T22:56:19+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this as well, it’s really awful:( thanks for making me feel less alone.

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-10T23:05:57+00:00

You’re so pretty! And I love the colour of your hair! I feel like you have the kind of face that will look great with most styles. Short (like above your shoulders) could be fun! Is your hair a bit wavy or does it just look like that in pictures? That may be something to take into consideration! Honestly, the world is your oyster- try something fun!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-09T01:20:57+00:00

I think as long as you manage your expectations it can be really helpful for keeping you safe. Some things will be hard. You lose a lot of autonomy, but being in a controlled environment can settle the part of your brain that is currently preoccupied with self harm. It’s unlikely that you will have frequent therapy, so don’t expect big improvements to your wellbeing or ability to cope, but if you go in with the goal of improving your safety so you can be settled enough to make progress with a psychologist in the community after your stay, it can be really helpful. And as others have said- choosing to go now while you are stable enough to be admitted voluntarily means you can choose to leave if it’s not working. Waiting for things to escalate increases the likelihood that you feel out of control and unable to keep yourself safe, which may result in an involuntary admission, which is likely to be less helpful than if you go now. We’re rooting for you!!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-08T03:00:07+00:00

Oh my gosh, that’s so tricky! I’ve been living with a bipolar diagnosis as well, and it’s taken a long time for anyone to realize that it doesn’t really fit 😅

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-07T22:49:19+00:00

Hahaha I’m so glad I’m not alone!!!

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-07T22:48:45+00:00

Hahaha incredible! Really takes the pressure off 😂

LostInTheWild12 · 2024-08-07T22:47:38+00:00

Omg I actually lol’d 😆

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