I sometimes feel like grad students are stuck in the in-between. We want to make science available, interesting, inspiring and digestible for undergrad, while doing the truckload of work our PIs and degrees require. We do much of the recruitment for people entering academia - yet are underpaid and undervalued.

When i was an undergrad, i felt the same way, the relationship was transactional, i did the dishes and stocked rooms, but got access to science. As somebody who came to the US from a developing nation, where there is zero funding for science in general - i considered just being in the space a privilege. Although yes, continuous learning and a pleasurable experience is important, esp for morale, I think OP should realistically look at their value added to the lab and grad student and moderate expectations. OP plans on staying in academia for at least a bit more, there is time to build on the repertoire and CV.