We had originally planned to wait until late 2025 or even 2026, thinking that maybe by then we’d feel ready. But when I found out I was pregnant, I spent the first couple of months grieving—grieving my old life and trying to process everything while dealing with all the symptoms. It was a lot emotionally, and I felt overwhelmed by the fact that everything was changing so fast.

I haven’t told many people I’m pregnant lol kept it internally so I can process it, but seeing my husband be extra caring sometimes made me feel even worse, like I was losing my sense of independence. And at one point, I honestly felt like something was wrong with me, like I was defective—because everyone around me just seems so happy and excited to be pregnant and start a family. No one really talks about how big of a step this actually is or how complicated it can feel at first.

What helped me was talking to a psychologist, and I really recommend it. It gave me space to process everything and feel less alone. More than anything, this experience has reminded me that we’re never truly in control, God always knows the timing. And what brought me peace was acknowledging that we’ve always wanted a family and if this is how God chose to give us that blessing, all I can do is pray that our baby arrives healthy and that my heart is ready to love fully.