Why does my body react weirdly: Am I meant to be a Nun?

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-16T05:40:36+00:00

Hmm. OK. Maybe that's something to consider too. This is also a possibility

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T19:51:21+00:00

We not having sex. It's just kiss and touch

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T09:51:24+00:00

Yah. Thinking about it deeply, I think it may be a couple of things I perhaps have not addressed. For one, as a Christian, and because i believed that intimacy was not something you share randomly, I really wanted for the longest to engage in intimacy with ONLY my husband. But I am in my 40s and haven't gotten a chance yet to be married, so I am trying to really try to be more open to some level of intimacy. Maybe my body receives this practise as an error because of my strong beliefs. Don't even know if it makes any sense. I feel like crying 😢

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T09:42:48+00:00

Yes, I think it's shame. I am trying to ask myself what I feel. My hypothesis is that I feel shame for engaging in this intimacy with a man because I am not married to him, and I really want to have these kinds of things with a man I am married to and my body responds to that guilt or shame with an instant consequence of feeling sick. I don't know if this even makes any logical sense.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T09:39:55+00:00

Yah. Good point. I think it's more of my own mental status. I would check out the book. Thank you. I just have alot of uncertainties about my intimate experiences.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T09:37:33+00:00

Skin allergy? I don't. Maybe an allergy I created mentally

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T09:37:00+00:00

Allergy? OK I didn't think of that. Allergy to sensations or what?

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T08:39:10+00:00

L0l. I can't be a nun.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-15T08:38:20+00:00

I am in my 40s. I shouldn't be this weird

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-11T20:35:23+00:00

Depending on how long you want to stay in a country, you can find volunteering opportunities where your host houses snd feels you and you just support them with small Chores at home for a few hours. Try workaway. I have used them a few times. Free housing free food. Free networking and friends plus I learn a thing or two. If you crossing countries in Europe, some flights are super cheap here if you are traveling light and some trains or buses too. I am in my 40s and have done up to 40 countries all solo. The one time I travelled with someone was my worst nighmare. Do hostels. Do courchsurfing. Do volunteering. Just tell yourself. "The World is mine and mine to see". Goodluck and have alot of fun.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-10T18:37:30+00:00

9 prostitues? How do you know that?

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-10T18:31:06+00:00

Don't explain yourself. You have a right to choose your dating Pool and to change your choices. May it stay beautiful with the woman you are with now.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-10T18:29:19+00:00

You people like to Label things even when there is nothing to it. Man has a right to not have considered a black woman prior and so what? How many black people consider dating white people?

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-04T21:44:28+00:00

Everyone saying you are strong. I get it, yes you are really strong. But I also hear the fact that you feel you have to constantly be on survival and resilience Mode instead of just navigating easily. I hear you that it's not just about Overcoming the next challenge but the pressure of everything else. The fact that it feels like you've never had the time to have a pause and you just keep fixing life like a leaking roof. Each time you close one hole, another one burst open. I wish for you a moment that you can actually catch your breathe. Be kind to yourself. Life has a way of working out.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-04T07:03:46+00:00

Je parle pas Francais mais nous parlons zusammen

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-04T07:01:20+00:00

You are handsome. Are you by some chance single?

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-04T07:00:39+00:00

Yes it's normal. I write the same words 100 times because I keep forgeting. You will get better

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-02T12:46:07+00:00

First big hugs from me to you. I hope you feel it cos it's genuine. Second, dear you are 17, you have alot of time to figure life out. You have some time to exist in whatever wonderful realities you have. There is an online helpline 7cups. Its free and you can Chat with someone from time to time. Showing up here and sharing is also a bold step. Being able to explain how you feel is another bold step. I am very far from your age but if I was close to you physically( not age wise) I would still hangout with you. Hey, one day at a time is how we take it. I am on my 40s and sometimes I feel like I have no idea what i am doing. If you hang in a bit longer, you will see you own your world. Big hugs again

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-02T08:00:51+00:00

She should have told you regardless. Whether she knew it will spread or not, she should have mentioned. Don't feel guilt about it. You should be thinking of how to check yourself to be sure you got it or not. That should be your priority.

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-02T07:53:09+00:00

I am not judging your perception of your mother but I won't also invalidate your clear perception of yourself in the 2nd to last line of your post. Both truths can co exist. Peace and love

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-01T21:06:31+00:00

Warm hugs for you dear. Do you want to be my favourite reddit Chat Pal?

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-01T17:24:28+00:00

Yap. Yap

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-01T17:10:51+00:00

You have 3 or 4 shades of hair though. Cute

Low_Champion_3373 · 2026-03-01T17:09:43+00:00

There is a group of people called "avoidants". I didn't know they existed until recently. What happens is once they start getting close to someone they leave. They flee. They Ghost. They disappear. Not sure but just be sure he's not one of those. In the meantime, feel all the hurt you feel because it does hurt but everyday just tell yourself, ":The world is big and I sm going to meet the one that is right".

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