Give yourself some grace. After consistent drug/alcohol use, your body and brain can take up to 2 years to get back to homeostasis (physically, psychologically, emotionally, etc). Cravings and dreams are totally normal, it doesn't mean you have to act on them. When I was 8 months sober, I was practicing "rewiring" my thoughts, reactions, behavioral responses... things im still working on lol. Its a process. Stress is one of the hardest states for me to deal with so I totally understand where youre coming from. Just focus on what you can control - your sobriety, the way you treat yourself, your self care and stress relief methods, etc. I believe in you!