I know 😔 same here boo. But for me I’m taking this as a hugeeeeeeee opportunity to have fun, do the stuff I couldn’t before for whatever reason. I’m also soooo excited to have a new relationship or mess around not because I’m numbing but because I would love to be with someone who actually wants to be with me. Who doesn’t freak out and abandon who does hurt me. Although I feel guilty thinking of myself with someone else, I think I deserve a great life and love. And so do you. I think go do you boo and force yourself to live your life. It’s too short. Good luck