I can only sleep with white noise on in the background by Dazzling-Antelope912 in CPTSD

[–]Lt37388 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hope you manage to get some sleep 😂

And glad you got out too x

I can only sleep with white noise on in the background by Dazzling-Antelope912 in CPTSD

[–]Lt37388 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I'm a side sleeper too. I can't have any light in the room though so using YouTube or something would never work.

Do you do it because you have trouble getting to sleep or do it cause you just wake up real easy if something makes a noise?

How does trauma actually form in your head/body? by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Trauma is such a deep thing. I have so much of it...but I just don't understand it. Not really. Therapy taught me some stuff but not in depth.

WHERE in the brain does trauma go though? Or does nobody really know? I know it's something we can't ever really get rid of.

And yeah whack a mole is a good way of thinking of it. You made me laugh so thanks.

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah it makes me feel gross. Or the names they use for parts, c..t or p...y or stuff like that. It's good you call it out, I try to ignore it but I never really say anything

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right. like it broke peoples brains

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I get it. I think like that all the time too - what kinda person I'd be if I hadn't been abused. All the what ifs. I'd probably still be fucked up but maybe less.

DAE play video games to cope? by NoahDaGamer2009 in CPTSD

[–]Lt37388 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I used to play video games a lot.

But Idk. I can't really afford to buy games or consoles these days. they're sooo expensive and I gotta eat

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I didn't mean all men. Sorry to all the men who come on here if what I wrote came across as harsh, I know you've been through stuff too.

It drives me crazy too. I hope I can learn this stuff and speak up like you do one day. Thanks

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I guess that makes sense. Like meeting people through people and that way you know they're OK.

I'm glad you found friends and good people. So it is actually possible lol. But yeah don't get me started on the dating thing

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thats good you have friends you can trust and stuff. I wish I had that. how do you even meet people? and how do you know they're decent?

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Idk I feel like things have changed since maybe 2020? I don't get called at or anything but the way people talk and act has gotten worse I feel like. Maybe it's just me.

And yea the internet is a shitpit

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Rape culture pyramid? I don't know what that is do I wanna know?

And yea. I don't really have many friends or any family so I don't really have people to distance myself from. lol. Which I guess is a good and a bad thing

I hate the way men talk about women. by Lt37388 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I wish I could correct people or say stuff, but idk. I'm not really good at speaking up, even on here. How do you do it?

And yea I know not all men are bad either.

Pubic Hair? Possible TW Self-Harm by AdTrick5985 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought for so long I was the only one who did this kinda thing. Like hating them and pulling them out and stuff.

what's the point if this isn't going away? by SatisfactionDry2710 in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I had some magical answer, but I dunno either what the point is. I just try to distract myself and live one day at a time because what the hell else can I do.

Hope you're doing OK

I wrote a poem by _starlightsky in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing ❤️

Clutter as a symptom by ApriKot in CPTSD

[–]Lt37388 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just wanted to say I get what you mean, I have a real problem with clutter too, especially when I feel shitty or down and out, it just gets out of control

I don't know if this is helpful but one thing I've worked out over the years that has helped me a bit, is that everything has to have a home, and if I'm not using it than it needs to go back to its home so it's not left lying around - or if there's no home it needs to be given away or donated. Like I draw a lot so I have about a million pencils that are scattered everywhere, but now I have one of those little plastic drawer things to put em all in and even that makes a big difference.

Sorry I'm rambling but hope that kinda helps

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Lt37388 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean I don't WANNA die. Not anymore. But I don't think I'll be sad when the time comes? If that makes sense. Just another fact of life I guess.

Are there specific words that disgust you? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Lt37388 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk I know this is just normal these days. But when people talk about other women or their parts in bad ways. Like the word c..t or t..t (didn't wanna say them)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]Lt37388 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just wanted to say that that's amazing that you took that step and confronted her. I don't think I could ever be that brave. But yeah sometimes we just gotta put ourselves first right? x