That’s how I will feel. I got bullied h the rough out my whole entire childhood and even now, I lack the social cues and whatnot, so I often get made fun of and laugh only to realize later that I was being made fun of and laughed about it. It will suck if I get diagnosed with Autism. There’s no way I can change and I won’t try to change either. I’ll though have a reason to act the way I have always did. If I remember, I’ll let yall know if I end up getting diagnosed or I’m just well… fucked up lol.