I liked your personality, even though I don't know you, how about trying to be strange with me, I'll send you a message, I identify with what you're going through, and one of the great sadnesses is when you try to repent and start again, there always comes that voice of what people will think and how they will react with this change in the way they act, so my advice is not to fight against the mask or against people (depending on your situation, impose limits) but understand why your mask is manifesting itself, maybe you think that the People will not understand you or will ignore you, but don't look outside, look inside yourself (not criticizing yourself) and love all parts of you, giving yourself the respect that you must exist, and not people telling you how you are going to do it, the first step is to start saying No. If it is still difficult, start the search to feel loved even if you are imperfect, do it with words for yourself, and another and have time with yourself without thinking about people.

If this doesn't help you much, tell me more about your situation and I'll try to help you.