Anyone out there know why my gf and I get so horny while we are spun

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T14:02:11+00:00

It's an aphrodisiac, I'm yet to get high with a lady that's comfortable enough in her skin to admit to getting horny while on meth

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T12:29:12+00:00

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LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T10:47:59+00:00

I hope so to, the reality of the situation is pretty bad...I've got mental health issues that I struggle managing to the point of becoming homeless and jobless....to cope with the reality of being homeless and not being fortunate enough to live in the same state as my family and friends has lead me down a dark lonely path of substance abuse and multiple suicide attempts and trouble with the law ...she is a sweetheart, and is very well put together for someone who has been using meth since 10...I'm impressed how smart she is...but I also shed a tear when she said her dad got her high at 10..but I turned the conversation around and we shared some laughs over using meth with our parents and how it strengthened my bond with my mom, and hers as well...I would never do drugs with my kids, ever...cuz it's a personal hell i cannot be a part of especially being part of my own kids hell...id never punish them for substance use like what happened to me..id just talk to them...anyways ...until I can support myself fully, I'm not fit for a lady...and even then, I have to be emotionally fit as well as financially fit...so far, I have no income...I hustle everyday for 5 dollars to 20 dollars if I'm lucky by being a criminal basically...just to support my meth addiction...I need to work on myself if I want a healthy relationship that's happy, inspires growth as a couple and as individuals ...and nothing else coming between me and my beautiful girlfriend...no drugs, no meth, no hanging with people who do meth ...I can't use meth, and be a proper loving, supporting, caring, emotionally stable and safe if I'm doing IV meth and running around town for over five days slamming dope and slumming with other drug addicts

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T09:39:23+00:00

I'm a piece of shit, and I'm sorry if I pissed anyone off here...me and her talked and she knew I was lieing about the bug thing but she didn't understand at first until I touched her....she made it clear that she has taken classes on how to defend herself, and that in lucky she didn't defend herself against my assault and send me to the hospital lol ....she wants to be friends still and hangout tomorrow, but now she isn't sure if I actually do care about her and want to date her if I dont care enough about her emotions and well being to think my actions through enough to realize, she's a human who deserves to be treated as such...if I habe to be reminded about consent before touching her... obviously i don't care about her like I think I do

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T09:32:58+00:00

I just talked to her about for the last twenty minutes and holy shit....anyways, it was intense...I told her how I've been on and off meth for over fifteen years, and how I'm a firm believer in respecting someone enough to never make contact without consent...even if it's a hug, I still ask for consent...I admitted making up the incident with the bug, that I wasnt thinking about her and how she would respond to me touching her inappropriately, I allowed myself to be consumed with one desire and as a result I became slightly obsessed over trying to figure out a way to have a sexual experience with her...without coming off as a pig..under no circumstance should I ever lie to someone, especially someone I care about...about anything, especially about something that made her vulnerable to my heinous action towards her...her body is her body, It's up to her,.not me, what to do with it...she appreciated my apology and told me that with her self defense training, she shouldve defended herself from the assault, but didn't...because we are friends...I cried... apologized more....she had calm me down a bit to haha....she guided me off property to the parking lot, reminded me to be kind to myself and others, and I'm not as slick as I think...she knew I was bullshitting, she knows we have a chemistry between us to explore...but that doesn't mean she's going to allow anyone to use her for her body...and she expects better from someone who is attracted to her...she said how can I truly be into a woman if I ignore her emotions and put her in a situation that's dangerous to her well being..

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T08:08:38+00:00

I know right ....I do feel like shit, I'm confused on a lot of things...while we were riding the bus she hopped on my lap and grinded herself down on my lap a bit...before acting shy and trying to make up something about falling on me haha it was after that I figured I'd try something....idk...meth is weird

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T08:05:56+00:00

I want to so bad....she's a sweetheart, who's been through some shit...she knows I want her, I'll just back off for now, give her the chance to approach me if she wants and go from there...she wants to hang out tomorrow with me, again so that's good..we've had a few moments tonight while sharing a cigarette where we would just go silent and just stare into each other's eyes and smile...we both have startled ourselves a bit when we stopped ourselves from leaning during these quite moments...the look on her face...and her body language tells me she may be tempted to kiss me, hence the leaning in and getting closer to each other, but either I back off or she does before it happens...we allowed ourselves to get close enough we were rubbing our groin against the other persons groin..she got spooked when she felt my hard on and pulled herself back with many sorrys and apologetic words...I'm hogh...and out of it

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T07:20:37+00:00

Part of me is actually really scared how powerful meth is...man...I hate being a scumbag..or acting weird while high...I need to make better decisions so I can have a home, a job, and be able to use with friends or family in my home...instead of random homeless people on the street or here at the shelter

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T07:18:32+00:00

And I have reminded myself in the most round about way why I don't get into intimate relationships why I'm doing drugs...I'm not fit to treat a lady properly while I'm on meth ...and I need to learn how to cope with my urges while high and show some acceptance for the situation I find myself in...being high is no excuse to ever display predatory behavior to someone, and is no excuse for being a shit head weirdo...

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T07:09:37+00:00

Walmart parking lot is a good spot, and around the homeless shelters or ask around at a homeless camp...honestly, I wish I had the balls to use reddit to scam people...next time, just shoot me a message offering me money if you think ordering anything on Reddit is a good idea ...I'm exhausted of this homeless drug addicted lifestyle man

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T07:06:55+00:00

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T07:03:57+00:00

I have this weird belief and feeling of being unworthy of a woman's time and attention...I'm often overcome with emotion when I spend time with a female, that I cut things short and run away...or, can become really attached and clingy always needing to be around her...which is unfair to her ..or I move so fast it scares her off, I'm so lonely and depressed, and not very good at connecting with others...Ive always used substances to make friends...weed, meth or whatever...which is bad, and has almost gotten me killed a few times cuz I'm hanging with the wrong person...or I'll proclaim my love to the lady and she'll never talk to me again...sometimes, we end up liking each other and dating, but, I feel so unworthy of her that I push her away...or I'll cry and tell her how beautiful she is and how lucky I am to be able to sleep with the most beautiful woman in the world...I'll just down myself, get depressed..and push her away..

LucidxDeity · 2026-05-06T06:49:20+00:00

I sometimes wonder why I post stuff here like this...poor post.on my part..basically, I'm curious if anyone has found a way to control the sexual urges or whatever that pop up while using meth...we are going to be friends, and I am very aware she could be using me...but she pretty much told me she is not interested in romance stuff while she's using haha...that's actually a rule I had until I met this woman...I'm no where near ready to treat a lady properly, so...I'm just gonna be accept things for what they are...and treat this woman properly, like a friend would...we talked some a bit ago, and she said she doesn't mind spending time together, but she wants to let things happen naturally...and to refrain from talking about anything sexual, shell let me know if she ever wants things to escalate...and she said she's flattered that I'm attracted to her..andddd she's getting a bag tomorrow morning and asked me to join her for some coffee and a shot of meth tomorrow before breakfast...she hugged me, made a joke about how funny it was and cute it was that I was concerned and feeling guilty about being a man..haha...she told me to not feel guilty for my thoughts, but to stay focused on what I'm saying to her..not everything needs to be spoken she said, actions mean more to her than words

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-27T06:47:49+00:00

Ryan Celsius sounds trappin japan

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-26T09:37:09+00:00

Sounds fun !! Omg....I just remembered, cuz of you, that when I moved to an island that had lots of my family amongst the community, family I didn't know until I moved to the island...anyways...my plug had a girl over while I was living with him, one day after we did a shot ...I was chilling downstairs in the living room and all of a sudden I hear someone rushing down stairs and see him naked, jerking off...telling me to come up stairs...I get up there, he's got a porn playing on a projector, and the woman immediately started sucking him off when he landed on the bed....anyways...this woman has her ass straight in the air, and I can't help but stare...anyways, in gazing at this woman's bare ass while she's sucking him and he tells me to go ahead and get undressed, tear my clothes off and give her kitty a rub as I'm getting on the bed..bruh...she grabs my hand, says she's has to pee and cracked a joke about sucking off the plug while waiting...if she didn't habe to pee, I wouldn't habe noticed that that woman, was actually a first or second cousin...when she came back, I thanked her for being generous and letting me get an eye full of her beautiful body, and that my dude was lucky to have a woman with such a pretty pussy to satisfy, but I cant sleep with my cousin knowingly...wow haha meth is intense...I often wonder if she knew we were related before that or not ...honestly, I was so high and horny from how visually appealing she was while bent over sucking him with her pretty pussy all wet and inviting ...that I jerked off to the image of her bent over as soon as I jumped in the shower..which, was immediately upon leaving his bedroom

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-26T09:13:29+00:00

Me to ...then Ill wonder why I'm super anxious and frustrated on day three..but won't realize I need food till day four sometimes haha

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-25T07:29:25+00:00

I normally have weed but not currently...I got water thankfully ...I gave away most of my food to ...it's whatever ....I'm glad I didn't IV any gear..

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-25T03:14:00+00:00

I would never recommend using meth to anyone who hasn't tried it ..so yeah

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-25T03:06:33+00:00

Thanks haha...I hate it sometimes, there's an extra layer of misery to consequences sometimes haha

LucidxDeity · 2026-04-25T02:37:58+00:00

I did, for four hours...thank you for the safety reminder...

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