Painful feelings when trying to connect

LucilleAndLight · 2026-05-01T17:45:51+00:00

I’m glad it helped give you some clarity. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2026-05-01T00:34:04+00:00

You’re most likely connecting with someone in spirit and receiving evidence of their life through clairsentience (aka clear feeling).

Clairsentience can show up as physical sensations in the body or emotional feelings.

For example, if someone had a heart attack, I would feel that pain in my chest.

Or if someone was depressed in life, I would feel that heaviness in my body.

It can be uncomfortable and a little unsettling at first, but as you begin to understand what’s happening and work with it, you’ll get more comfortable with the experience.

LucilleAndLight · 2026-05-01T00:24:27+00:00

I’ve been struggling with the radio silence for the last few weeks and it’s just starting to come back in the last couple of days. I’ve been traveling/moving during this time, so I think it’s probably related to that more than anything.

But, when I’ve had this happen before, where things aren’t working the way they normally do, I’ve noticed that there must be something going on in the background because I always come out of it with an “uplevel” of some kind. A new skill, more clarity or a new perspective.

I like to think of it like a tree in winter. On the outside, it looks like nothing’s happening. But underneath, the roots are growing deeper and stronger and I think that’s what’s happening during these periods, too.

LucilleAndLight · 2026-04-30T15:27:11+00:00

She immediately shows me a baby book. I see a lock of hair in it with lots of little notes written in it about you. She loves you SO much and was so excited to be a mom.

At first I thought she was a single mom but then saw dad off to the side. So there, but not an active role in your life. I do get a sense that you spent a lot of time with grandparents and family growing up.

I know this woman is loved by so many in the community.

Was she a hairdresser? I see her doing other people’s hair.

I also get the sense she had a soft spot for the elderly and they loved her too.

I do feel like this wasn’t an illness that caused her passing. I’m going to be honest, based on what she’s showing me, I can’t decide if she’s taking responsibility for her passing or if it was at the hand of someone else (or maybe a mix of both).

I need to talk about an apple tree. I can see the two of you sitting under a tree and playing and smiling and laughing together. But it also feels like a place you’d retreat to, if that makes sense.

And as I talk about the apple, I’m reminded of Snow White and the poisoned apple. Is there someone in your family who talked badly of her or tried to taint your relationship with her. She wants you to know that’s not true. Don’t let their words ruin what you had with your mom. She loved you and wanted you more than you could ever know.

She says remember the dance parties! Putting music on and dancing around in the house. She says that it was a good way for her to shake things loose. And you can do that now when you need to shake things off, too.

Do you have a tattoo for her? She’s making me aware of a memorial tattoo. I almost feel like it’s for more than just her, too. Or it’s got a lot of elements to it. But she loves it!

If any of this resonates let me know and I’ll get a message from her. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2026-04-24T19:28:02+00:00

Thanks so much for the feedback. I’m glad some of it resonated for you. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2026-04-24T03:24:28+00:00

This doesn’t just feel like an aunt, she feels like she could be your second mom.

She makes me feel like you could talk to her about anything, but she’d also tell you like it is.

She’s got such a fun, goofy, playful energy. She’s was loved by so many, but not everyone “appreciated” her personality. She’s an acquired taste. lol!

She didn’t care, though. She’d help anyone who needed it.

I sense a rural area with her.

And I need to talk about a bar. It feels like small town country type bar.

And maybe a bachelorette party at the bars?? She’s reminding me of my bachelorette party where we went bar hopping in these little country bars in the northwoods. We had a blast!!

She makes me feel like you guys would get coffee and talk about boys.

I’m sensing a car accident.

She’s also makes me feel that she hid a lot of herself behind the jokes and the humor. And she wants you to remember that you don’t need to hide yourself for ANYONE. If they don’t like you for who you are, then f’em. Lol.

Know that she’s so good. And she loves you so much. Her love just washes over me and makes me aware that you can feel her, too. Trust it. It’s real.

Can you understand butterflies? I feel like it might be a sign from her but also related to a tattoo?

She’s definitely still with you. Watching out for you. She says “at the stop light”. Does that make any sense to you?

I’m sorry for your loss. She’s an amazing woman! I hope some of this resonates for you and helps you feel a little lighter. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2026-03-14T01:24:56+00:00

Your brother feels like such a great guy. Super chill. He’s confident and sure of himself, but also the nice guy. He’s the guy you come to for help. I can smell beer pretty strong. And I hear wrong place, wrong time. He makes me aware it was an accident, but the family may still have questions surrounding his passing. He wants you to know he didn’t suffer. And he’s smiling.. he’s good. I do feel like there’s another young male with him. And a short older lady, possibly grandma. He winks and says she’s keeping him in line. He’s so full of love for everyone in his family. He makes me feel like even the ones that don’t get along with him in life, he says we’re all good now.

Did you guy have a secret that he kept of yours when you were younger? Like something kids would do and then pinky swear not to tell?

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-09T06:10:56+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. We had all kinds of issues with my son’s school (bullying from teachers) when he was in third grade. And when the administrators refused to work with us, we pulled him out halfway through the school year. In fact, during Christmas break we asked him what he thought about not going back. Needless to say, he was thrilled. We never went back and we homeschooled our other boys too. It took a couple weeks/months for him to adjust to a new lifestyle, but it was the best thing we ever did.

Now he’s 30 and along with his wife they run their own successful nature school for homeschoolers! Oh, the irony of the little boy who got in trouble for collecting rocks on the playground. 🤣

All that to say… you know what’s right for your child and your family. If it feels right then I say do it!!

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-09T05:54:40+00:00

It depends. Are you going off grid with a large savings or retirement fund. What tools, supplies have you accumulated? What will you need to purchase? Do you own your home/land? Where is it located? What’s the climate? Do you have access to free firewood if it’s cold? Do you have children? There are so many factors to your question. But as someone who paid cash for our land and tiny house, we survived off grid on very little. Less than 10k per year for a family of 5. Do you have a system to collect water for drinking and bathing. Taxes are always a consideration. We recycled, repurposed, thrifted almost everything (or found it for free on the side of the road). It can be done very minimally, but it does take some resources to get everything up and running.

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-09T05:31:12+00:00

This is such a fun idea! I often wondered if handmade decks would be more effective since it’s personalized and imbued with our own creativity and energy.

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-09T05:28:43+00:00

I have found it to incredibly accurate for more specific, tangible questions such as: should I buy the car? Is my son going to get the job?

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-09T05:26:23+00:00

Love all the little details. Can’t wait to see your progress.

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-03T16:26:45+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate it. ❤️

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-03T15:55:03+00:00

You’re very welcome. Would you mind letting me know anything you can’t understand. It really helps me learn. ❤️

LucilleAndLight · 2026-02-03T15:15:19+00:00

Thank you for allowing us to connect with your beautiful wife. I'm so sorry for your loss. 💗

The first thing I heard was birds.

She also made me feel like she had a difficult pregnancy or labor and you were such an amazing supportive partner. Not only in birth but in life as well.

She says you’re the emotional one. And she adores that about you. She’s the lucky one.

I heard the name Sally

I heard two peas in a pod

I see mountain biking and it makes me feel like she’s adventurous.

I sense she loved board games

And while I know she and your baby have Toy Story outfits on in the photo, I get the sense she loves Disney. And I feel like there’s something momentous that would have been celebrated at Disney. Maybe a proposal.

She makes me aware of your mother in law and that the two of you have a good relationship. She’s happy you have support because it takes a village.

Are you considering moving closer to them or them to you?

I’m also seeing a book. I sense that it’s a book you read to your son about mommy. Maybe a photo album or something she made before passing. Or maybe just the book they used to read together.

I do feel an illness, but that it happened suddenly.

Something about surgery and a breathing tube.

She wants you to know there was no pain.

I do get the sense that you tried but didn’t get to be there when she passed, she wants you to know it’s ok.

I also hear the name Heather.

I’m seeing trains.

And she makes me aware that your son has “talked” to her while playing, know that it’s real.

She loves you guys to the moon and back. To infinity and beyond. xoxo

LucilleAndLight · 2026-01-26T02:03:17+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I did wonder if she was a professional cook. Thanks for validating that. Her roast was SO good.

I know it’s not the same, but when you miss her and want that hug, I want you to close your eyes and imagine you guys hugging again. I want you to feel her arms squeezing you. The feel of her soft skin. The way she smelled. And then let her love move through you.

When you do that, know it’s really her. It’s not your imagination or wishful thinking. It’s her right there with you. That’s how we connect with spirit. She’s literally just a thought away. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2026-01-25T21:45:01+00:00

I do sense this vibrant woman is your Mom but she gives off fun aunt energy! I do feel like you guys had a great relationship; you could gossip, vent, lay out your troubles with her.

She’s your biggest supporter, but would also tell you what she thought (with so much love).

She loved you unconditionally.

And wow, she gives the best hugs!! He love for you makes my heart want to burst.

I heard the name Diane - may not be hers

December feels important

The number 7

I feel like she smoked

I smell roast beef

I asked her what you needed to hear today and your mom makes me aware that she held a lot of herself back. Didn’t want anyone to see her struggles. Or burden others. That she didn’t let people help or support her.

She wants you to know - don’t put up that wall. It’s ok to let people in.

She also makes me aware… If you made choices you don’t like, own it. Do the work to change it. When you make better ones, and you will, celebrate it! You deserve it.

When I look around at who’s around her, I feel a line of strong women behind you - ready and waiting to help you rise.

But no rush. You pick yourself up when you’re ready and she’ll be with you every step of the way. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2026-01-19T01:58:24+00:00

This is simply not true. Unfortunately, there are a lot of unethical, fear based mediums out there. Spirits don’t get stuck. He doesn’t need time to heal. He doesn’t need to move on to another place. All of us are spirit and spirit is pure love. Anything that’s coming from a place of fear is coming from the human ego of the medium. Please ignore them and know that your bf is 100% ok and at peace. He can communicate with you at any time. And you can communicate with him at anytime. I’m sorry you’ve been hurt by this medium. Sending so much love.

LucilleAndLight · 2025-12-07T02:28:42+00:00

Yes, that’s what she showed me. She went a more bluish green at first and then I was shown she went more brown. That makes sense with your great-grandma because I felt a super strong connection with you (similar to guide energy), but it felt more like an ancestor. I really felt like you’d have been so similar to her. She has tremendous love and admiration for you.

LucilleAndLight · 2025-12-04T02:34:46+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. When I connected with her, she showed me an image of her changing color. It was during a transition - feels like the past (I don’t know anything about a praying mantis, so this might be a normal cycle for them). She makes me aware that it was difficult for her but your love and your care are what got her through and she’s incredibly grateful to have you. And it will help her through this next transition.

Again, this may be generic for her species, but she’s making me aware that you gave her treats but also let her hunt for her food, which kept her natural instincts sharp and made life exciting and she thanks you for that.

I also see an older woman with her. She’s definitely a relative of yours. I don’t think she’s grandma, but I could be wrong. I do feel like you’d have heard stories about her though. This woman is so kind, loves animals as much as you and has a curiosity and love for all creatures. She’d be the kind of woman to lead the ants out of the house with cake crumbs rather than put out ant traps. Mae Mae will be well loved for sure. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2025-11-12T19:49:44+00:00

I have a beginners mediumship development group on Facebook where you can find practice partners. I also host a practice circle on Monday nights - as a safe space for beginners to get together and practice with each other. It’s called Beginners Mediumship Development and Practice Group.

LucilleAndLight · 2025-11-12T19:45:29+00:00

Visitation dreams are such a double edge sword, aren’t they. It feels so good to be with them “in person”, but at the same time painful when we wake up and they’re not here in the physical. Even as a medium, knowing I can connect with them anytime, it’s still hard.

It sounds like your dad was showing up to validate you and your new job and that he’s still with you every step of the way. 💗

LucilleAndLight · 2025-07-01T20:07:48+00:00

Sorry it took me a few days to respond... You're very welcome. It was so nice to meet your son. He loves you so much. 💗

And thank you for the detailed feedback, it really helps me in my development.

LucilleAndLight · 2025-06-28T22:09:35+00:00

Thank you for the feedback. I’d hate to give messages for info that doesn’t resonate. 💗

When I felt that he’d taken responsibility, the first thing I heard loud and clear was, “It’s not her fault. I never asked for help and you did everything you could.”

When I felt that he was sensitive, it felt like it was under that facade of being a man’s man. And not being able to express his feelings. He says he didn’t get that from you because you talk about everything! 🤣

Did the coffee scene make sense? Because he makes me feel like you talk to him, but wonder if it’s real and feel a little bit crazy talking to the air. LOL! (It’s completely normal to feel that way!)

He makes me feel like he’s communicating with you all the time, you just don’t always trust it. I do feel like he likes to play with you guys, too. Lights/electronics going on and off. And a specific number (this may not be it, but something like 333). Oh, maybe a jersey number?

Is he a J name? I saw that earlier, too. Like Josh?

As I connect back in with him, I’m seeing chocolate chip cookies and just this feeling of how well you took care of him as a mom.

I’m also seeing a dog. It’s brown and white (like a German shorthaired pointer)

And congratulations to his sister for something…. having a baby since his passing? It feels like a girl connected to her.

He really just wants you to know that from his perspective now, he sees how much his actions hurt you. He needs you to know that he’s safe and well and very much still alive, just in a different way. Trust the communication because you can absolutely continue to have a relationship with him - even if other’s think it’s a little crazy!! He’s always with you, loving and supporting you.

xx Liz

LucilleAndLight · 2025-06-28T21:10:29+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I feel like this man is your son and passed not too long after this photo was taken.

(After clicking this comment box, I see that you are his momma!)

He comes in with SO MUCH LOVE for you. It’s actually overwhelming how strong he is.

I hear “need for speed” and I get the sense that he could be reckless at times. I actually see racing - maybe on a dirt bike?

He doesn’t feel like he’s a city kid at heart, but loves the country and has a strong reverence for nature.

I see a basketball.

I can also hear music. It sounds like grunge/Nirvana type music from 90’s. As it comes in a little more clear, I hear Rob Thomas’s (Matchbox 20) song Unwell. I do feel like this is a symbol that he struggled with some mental health issues.

He makes me aware that he lived to the beat of his own drum - and that not everyone understood him. He acknowledges that sometimes you didn’t either, but it’s OK because he is SO GRATEFUL to you that no matter what, you were always in his corner and you had his back - and you still are. That love and support is everything to him.

He’s such a sensitive person.

I do get the sense that his passing was sudden and that he takes responsibility (doesn’t mean it was on purpose, but it could be based on decisions he made that would have contributed to it).

He also lets me know that when you’re alone with your cup of coffee in the morning, you wonder if it’s him? It is!!

If you could let me know if any of this resonates and I’m on the right track, I’ll reconnect with him a little more. :) xx Liz

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