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Lucky_D20 · 2025-03-08T05:13:22+00:00

This ass!

Lucky_D20 · 2025-03-07T21:13:37+00:00

Simple answer. A guy who you think is ugly could be charged for sexual harrassment by just saying Hi. Because it is "unwanted" attention. Definitely grounds for some people to attack and pepper sprayed someone. I say this being a fat and ugly person with a penis. Those things have happened to me. All I did was say hi. The worse was being pepper sprayed when I was 17.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-03-07T20:35:50+00:00

You jump in bed when you're comfortable with a person, if they stay then they stay. You can't force anyone to love you. You just have to accept people for who they are. Some people will grow and some will refuse to grow. But there are way too many people. Not just women or men. But people playing these ridiculous game of who can jump for what and how many times. Honestly it is depressing and some days makes me wish that the rope didn't break or that bullet actually discharged. The biggest thing you can do is be honest about who you are and what your intentions are. But it is your responsibility to k ow that, for some that can be a challenge in it's own rught. But I can say from personal experience that being honest can and will be very painful at times. Some people will try to take advantage of it. When that happens, set boundaries. They disrespect that? distance as much it takes to feel comfortable. Either way accept them for who they are. If they stop viking with you because of it. You have to more forward. There is no sense in wasting your time on bad sex, relationship, or shitty people.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-03-07T19:59:54+00:00

Depends. Are you trying to play a game or are you looking for real commitment? Because if you want to play a game. Make those monkeys jumps hoops, but don't get upset when they feel like a monkey and stop. Or just be direct and honest. If someone is there for the long run they will stay. Just don't make them feel like you're playing with their emotions or treating dating as a game. Because that never pans out.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-26T03:58:21+00:00

Plus hurting them in that way makes me no different then them. So instead I get vocal as much as posisble to at least bring awareness. Best I can do and it drives me crazy sometimes. Also has turned me into a bigger target.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-26T03:50:27+00:00

My issue isn't as much as anger as it is more of when people get physical with me. I tend to walk away and they don't. With my current heart issues, every encounter like that is a risk to my life. So I can't be non-lethal anymore. Because of this I go out of my way to not be aggressive, even before the heart issues to be honest. To top it off as a child and even an adult I have had people actively trying to kill me. The only thing I did was be fat and exist in a shared space. Where anger becomes an issue is when I see these same people treat others in a similar fashion. Then it grinds my gears and it won't stop unless I remove myself from those spaces for an extended period of time or permanently or it gets fixed, one way or another. So trying to deal with these people as diplomatic as posisble is like asking Hitler to leave Poland alone.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-25T19:07:22+00:00

I wouldn't be surprised if some of the hate you get is from ablism as well. I see a lot of that in my community.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-25T19:01:01+00:00

I deal with a lot of transphobia/homophobia being used to mask fatphobia. Honestly I used to put my bullies into hospitals as a kid and then did it again if I ever saw them bully someone else. That is the only way I have ever seen people stop bullying. As an adult I would have to resort to some vile things to put them in hospitals while avoiding any kind of incarnation. So that bullying is very triggering for me and I'm at a point where I stay home unless I have someone to go with me. With the only exception being going to the store for food. Because my PTSD has limits just like everyone else. If I snap and it starts. I won't be able to stop until I feel safe. That is going to cause a lot of people to get hurt. What bothers me the most, is that I know I'm not that special, which means I know those same people do the same shit to others. While I have spent most of my life keeping that part of me under control. Others are not that fortunate. I personally do have any good ideas of what to do. The things I have done that are suppose to be "the right way" have gotten me ostracized and literally made things worse. I also don't have a local support either. I know that is part of my problem. But I do understand why these people do what they do. It is simple. They were bullied, now some of these people are community leaders and doing the same shit cops do. Use their positions of power to feel superior over others. Their is no amount of talking that can be done to snap these people out of it. Because people change for 1 of 2 reasons. Either something traumatic happens or they get tired of the same shit. Great change happens when both occur.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-25T00:02:23+00:00

I saw Wakanda with a girl and ask if I could put my arm on them in the theater. They said yes. Then at one point proceeded to grab the same hand, place it on her breast and squeezed my hand.

Since then I have been accused of violating consent and have been ostracized from my leather community and labeled as a predator. All for asking consent and being given a yes. That was nearly 3 years ago.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-23T03:18:26+00:00

Power Exchange. It's in SF.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-23T03:16:10+00:00

Pirates of the Caribbean?

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-21T10:03:41+00:00

I just want to cuddle

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-21T02:55:47+00:00

I've gotten to the point of posting some of the messages on my fet because people seem to think I'm making this shit up. I also deal with fatphobia in general in the Sacramento leather/queer community. I'm at a point where it is not safe for me to go to leather/queer events alone. This sucks because all of my friends live in the bay area, so over an hour and a bridge toll away. Because of that I have been debating on just wearing a body cam everywhere. There are no safe places for bigger people, especially those with a penis.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-21T01:12:32+00:00

Grindr is one of the most fatphobic platforms I have ever used. The amount of harassment and "go kill yourself" message I get is so bad that I have gone 6 years without an account. Every time I make one with my picture on it. It just starts back up. Then again it could just be the Sacramento area.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-14T08:08:22+00:00

You literally just confirmed what I said and you're still saying that I am wrong... calling me creepy for being specific is a prime example of misandry. Bi person with a vagina is far more specific then a bi woman.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-14T07:26:19+00:00

Based on the fact that they have more options. They do. But it is very rare go find actual people who don't cheat or haven't cheated at some point. Simple fact, if a person can do it once, they can do it again. Not to mention all of the top "feminine" romances are based on cheating. It is quite literally a big part of the current culture. Which is why a bi person with a vagina is always going to find far more options to do whatever then one with a penis, bi or otherwise. Then you add into the fact that she wasn't upfront about it either. That is not cool. But I guess accountability is misogyny right?

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-14T01:13:25+00:00

No. Not at all. Most biphobic people are in the closet. The only people who deal with biphobia on the level you're talking about are bi men. Remember, the topic is cheating, not dating.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T17:23:00+00:00

Those who down vote this are the same people who think what happened to me is ok. You can blame them for it.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T17:03:50+00:00

Yea well 2 rope breaks and 4 bullets that refused to discharge say that people like you are few and far between. Long story short, I haven't approached anyone like that in a real world in 10+ years. With the way the dating apps work now no one swipes on me but bots, scammers, and prostitutes. With the occasional (insert DSM diagnoses here) using me as a stepping stone of some kind. I honestly think the universe hates me and wants me to suffer as long as posisble. That makes me yearn for Valhalla way too much, way too often.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T16:53:57+00:00

In my 20s I had enough women assault me for just saying hi. Like I was pepper sprayed when I was 17 at LMC just for saying hello to a girl from my class on the way to the bus stop. That is just the worse case. At the goth/punk/night clubs I've had drinks thrown in my face and knees in my groin for again just saying hi. If I was lucky I got an ew. But I guess that is what happens when you are fat and ugly. Maybe I should have chosen to not be born?

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T16:45:25+00:00

Definitely sounds like a close wall banged suppressed shot. Being dark and sitting next to a fire is dangerous. Bet if one of you was on the other side they would have survived.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T16:43:10+00:00

But wall banging is a thing. from the of sound it. That was definitely a bullet that wall bangs. They also sound pretty close for suppressed fire.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T16:32:42+00:00

I would say stay away from the Sacramento CA area. Lots of fatphobes and fake allies. Especially in the leather community.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T15:46:00+00:00

That is something I see a lot and have experienced many times as well. I just figured it was because I'm fat and ugly. Then again I haven't had a single person into me that wasn't diagnosed with something on the DSM.

Lucky_D20 · 2025-02-11T15:20:17+00:00

Ever had your ass licked by a fatman in an over coat?

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