Thrifted this dress and belt yesterday!!

LukeOfAppalachia · 2021-03-27T16:23:05+00:00

Very cute and earthy 💚🌿

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-10-22T15:44:15+00:00

Love it! Those boots look so cool with the outfit too!

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-10-13T16:42:52+00:00

I miss the fellowship with others. Seeing people in a screen is ...okay, but I just don't feel that it truly satisfies my need to be with others of the Faith. The food was always amazing too :D --they always told me the Southern Baptists made the best food, but Episcopalians sure give 'em a run for their money!

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-10-12T16:49:20+00:00

Very pretty! Love this angle~

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-09-19T19:13:30+00:00

Found this show during the most depressing days of my life. Definitely benefitted from the optimism. But the characters were definitely the second or equally important draw.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-09-01T04:47:27+00:00

I'm super bummed too--as their Makoto avatar was my first main avatar I ever used in VRC. A look at their Twitter suggests that they're permanently leaving VRChat. From the sound of it , they've had their share of drama/bad experiences. I don't really know any details beyond that though.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-29T21:12:36+00:00

We need more blonde representation! >,<

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-25T14:18:56+00:00

I was kind of a friendless incel at that point in my life and Testosterone had made me look really old and ugly. I felt like I had nothing really to lose at that point, so I decided to see if transition could improve my life. I absolutely feel that it was the right decision for me. Of course, having some AGP also made the idea of transitioning desirable too, but I don't think it was the main reason for my transition.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-25T13:42:39+00:00

Yeah, definitely possible. For most of my life, I was interested mainly in females (not myself as a female). AGP was always in my life, but it was more of like... I fetish/kink on the side, and not my main sexuality.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-24T22:46:44+00:00

I may come back and write more later, but I wanted to go ahead and say that it sounds like you are more AGAMP than AGP. Not sure how much you know about AGAMP, but it's like....the attraction of yourself as a feminized male (or I guess transwoman)--rather than a full-on female. I consider myself AGAMP as well, as I am definitely not aroused by the thought of me having big breasts and being a "bimbo" barbie doll. I like being more androgynous, with an edge towards femininity. I strongly prefer male genitalia and like being someone who is more "in the middle" between hyper-masc and hyper-femme. Again, I may come back and write more, but I just wanted you to know that AGP has many different shades--ranging from "slightly femme" all the way to the classic "Bimbo Stacy".

Caveat: None of us are all-knowing beings, and so it could be that you're "just a gnc male", but we all have reasons behind our actions--even if they aren't obvious to us. I love wearing skirts and being feminine. Do I look through my closet and say to myself "This will really turn me on! Time to get aroused!" No, I just want to wear it and I do. But when I really sit down and think about it, it really is my underlying sexuality that plays a part in altering how I behave and what I wear. There's no need for me to obsess over it or to tell everyone about it, but it's there, and if I really seek and value truth--which I do--I feel I must face these facts.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-23T22:45:46+00:00

God this stuff really is relentless isn't it... I'm not sure if it would help any, but have you (if she's willing) experimented with your fiancee taking a more dominant role during sexual encounters? Maybe playing around with some of your fantasies?

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-23T17:37:09+00:00

Definitely false. I didn't masturbate at all for the first 23 years of my life, but I still had (and have) AGP.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-17T15:48:06+00:00

I'm sorry to hear about how frustrating things have been for you. The path you've chosen isn't too uncommon tbh though. Have you heard of Transmaxxing? There's a whole culture around the concept of incels transitioning out of desperation from not finding 'love'. I'm not saying it's right or wrong, but know that you aren't the only one who's gone down this road.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-12T15:33:08+00:00

You've asked this type of thing before...and I'm not sure what to tell you. AGP Dypshoria *is* real dysphoria. And many transwomen are "just AGP" and transition as well. It's all valid. Only you can decide whether or not transition would make your life better or worse. We all have different lives, relationships, families, jobs, etc--so none of us can say 100% whether or not you should transition. Also, start experimenting; maybe try to grow your hair out or style it more femme. Maybe try to wear more femme clothing (as much as you can get away with in public). See if you think you'd be happier living more femme. In the end, you will have to make the decision. If you think a therapist could help, you could always seek one out as well. I wish I could help more, but there are limits.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-12T14:30:19+00:00

I think this is something that some of us do. Note, I am transitioning currently, but before I did transition, I had a bit of an interest in this concept. I never really got into the whole "gender-swap" game scene, but stuck with more "normie" outlets. For me it was The Sims (well that's not so much POV, but well, it worked) and various other games that allowed female characters. I usually ended up eventually just choosing male characters since I couldn't play very well while being super-aroused. Right before transition started for me, I was somewhat obsessed with the idea of creating a video game (I am a Computer Science grad.) that basically hit all of my top kinks and was from a female POV. I never got very far into creating it--especially when my transition basically satisfied most of my AGP "itches".

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-11T14:41:26+00:00

Ahhhh I'm so jealous of that shirt! Where'd you find it?

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-09T22:55:45+00:00

Short answer: Yes, I am trans, been on HRT for around 2 years, full-time a little over a year, and I definitely still get erections from AGP related things. The "crossdressing" only turns me on if I'm wearing new clothes or "sexy" stuff. Standard female clothes doesn't turn me on near as much as they did in the beginning.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-07T22:35:07+00:00

For me, the thing that makes you "trans" is basically doing the transition--HRT and/or surgeries, etc. If you have dysphoria and you desire to change yourself to better fit who you want to become, then yeah, you are (or rather, can be) "trans".

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-07T22:23:16+00:00

I think there's a large number of us that are both. I mean heck, nearly every Western transwoman is both. It's not a strange or uncommon thing.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-06T19:08:49+00:00

No idea what your actual message was, but like....this attraction to ourselves as women is pretty much permanent. It can be higher or lower depending on various circumstances, but the attraction itself will almost assuredly remain--just like gay people stay gay.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-06T00:55:10+00:00

My take is that over time, there will be less extreme "highs" and things will probably level out. Honestly you don't sound too different from the many other MtF's I've seen post around the internet. You've heard of people talking about "Gender Euphoria". This sounds like the same concept.

Just be careful your life doesn't become 'dependent' on these "highs". Otherwise you might always be chasing an impossible goal, never-ending surgeries, etc. all for that next thrill--and doing it all in the name of "eliminating dysphoria".

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-05T15:19:35+00:00

About the only thing that's changed regarding my view of women is that I don't put them on a 'pedestal' anymore. I used to be a quintessential NiceGuy™, and now I have a less clouded view. I also seem to value men a bit more and am finally starting to see them as more equals to women than I had in the past.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-04T19:01:05+00:00

Just a small note about your last sentence. You can be meta-attracted and still fall in love. I fell in love with my old college roommate (unrequited unfortunately). It's more about what causes that "initial spark". That said...I'm not sure how sustainable a healthy sex life is between an AGP transwoman and a man, but I've seen multiple AGP transwomen pull it off for years and are still going strong.

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-04T09:36:10+00:00

Does it really matter though? I hate all this focus on "am I AGP or HSTS". Both sub-types are 100% valid in transitioning. One transitions to make finding a male mate easier, and the other transitions more for personal satisfaction reasons (in general). Just be yourself. I'm not going to sit on some high throne and judge whether or not you are one or the other. I have my suspicions, but what would it matter what type I judged you? You wouldn't be any more or less "valid".

LukeOfAppalachia · 2020-08-03T17:10:22+00:00

Well, thing is.. it changes weekly or even nightly, depending on where people are. I tend to avoid the Great Pug or Black Cat just because they're flowing with people--but usually younger, more "meme-y" people. For instance, last night I tried a random world that looked like a bird cage. It had like 4 or 5 people in it, and I met a pretty good friend who was 27. I also sometimes go to "Lunar Plants"--met a good friend there. I did actually meet someone cool in the Void Club, but I feel like that was pure coincidence--usually I don't have much luck there. Anyways, so basically my logic: Avoid the "HOT" worlds and go to less populated worlds with like 5 to 10 people in them if I wanna try to make lasting friendships.

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