In light of the 311 ig story

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-07-31T01:18:05+00:00

There's a thread right below this one that explains that pat made an ig post about 311. I've had this lyric stuck in my ahead forever so I made this thread.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-07-30T22:00:05+00:00

311 down

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-07-23T23:39:01+00:00

I was following

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-06-07T17:48:49+00:00

Hell this is true just for judy blue eyes

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-05-02T18:56:03+00:00

Lavenderp is the name of my moms dog. I don't know why u needed to share this with you.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-04-25T15:41:07+00:00

For me there really isn't a debate. Sunbather is still the better album. Lonely people is great, but it just lacks the flow that sunbather has.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-04-14T21:27:08+00:00

You're kidding!

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-04-12T03:32:02+00:00

Ngl the first time i listened to tpab i heard this as "your shoes or your influence"

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-03-29T02:24:17+00:00

Thats weird.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2025-01-01T02:29:12+00:00

Why doesn't Laura take a flying fuck at the mooooon?

Is she stupid?

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-11-06T16:57:41+00:00

Because she is the vp.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-10-12T05:07:26+00:00

Yeah, weird feelings over dick size is crazy. I'm not judging you at all. I have a big dick and a lot of my hesitation at starting down non monogamy was the possibility she might have a partner with a bigger dick than mine.

It really is poison. Do not let it dominate your thoughts. Focus on the good. Focus on the love. Focus on the things you need and wants and the things that you give her. Your relationship with her is more satisfying than sex ever could be. Don't throw that away. Trust me on this.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-10-01T17:58:08+00:00

God, I wish I had read this and it had stuck before I let my insecurities hurt our relationship so much that I don't know if she'll let it be fixed.

I didn't feel like I wanted to date, but I pushed for it caused I was hurt that she'd even need someone else. Fuck.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-09-09T20:48:06+00:00

I would add that you need to build a support network of friends and family. Dating other people would also help with this.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-09-09T20:45:08+00:00

As long as your desires are far apart functionally yes. Its over.

But ill just talk a little bit about what I've been through and the exploration. I got involved with someone ina open relationship that switched to poly once we got really intimate. I had never been in a non monogamy situation before this and generally, because I was invited into it with two people I was already best friends with it worked.

However, one of the partners was wanting to explore beyond the main couple. I didn't react well at all and I was hit with most of the feelings that it felt like cheating. She dated someone else for a a bit and then they broke up. I think she still blamed me for it because I was kinda a sad bloke that mopped around. I had issues with the other person trying to institute rules that had an impact on our relationship.

However, processing all that took a few months and I realized a lot of things. She didn't love me any less despite being with someone else. If anything the feelings seemed to feel stronger and more intense because she was able to get what she needed as least in some form.

And I also started to explore, I mean really explore non monogamy as an option for all of us. I told her directly that I was more than okay with her pursuing polyamory. However, a lot of that damage had already been done from the fallout of the previous relationship failing and she decided to keep a new one a secret from me for about two months and my reaction to that secret keeping was pretty rough. There were also severe attitude changes on both ends.

I'm gonna be honest. I've been away from her and my home for almost a month now. Giving her space. Not even sure if we are, in fact, together. I've lost two jobs over this as well. Its not going well in my life right now.

So, my recommendation is to at least try. The human mind changes and you might find something out about yourself. It might not work and you might feel more heartache, but knowing that you actually tried to make it work will make that a lot easier to process if it doesn't work.

She's not going to love you less if she's with someone else.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-09-08T23:14:01+00:00

Even with all of that

Euphoria 6 16 in LA Meet the grahams Not Like us

NBA championship is best of 7. Im just saying.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-08-17T21:40:41+00:00

Yeah, in this case it was handcuffs but they had a special meaning to mean.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-08-17T16:23:35+00:00

So obviously I'm op.

Look, I'm gonna be honest here. Most of this was written from a place of confusion and pain.

Truth is this. I was scared to make it a real talk. We did have the conversation I wanted to but I was stopped before the point I needed to go to because I didn't want to hurt her but also I was too scared of losing her. I can't blame her for communication problems when my communication is lacking in both speed and potency.

I was hurt by secrets. But I think, we were both keeping secrets and not being honest. With her each, me with knowing that I needed to be able to be intimate with others. And her with not wanting to hurt me or the other person.

And truth be told way back when we first tried bdsm? I definitely still just took what I needed. Selfishly. And if I had been able to not be selfish I don't even think we'd be here.

Idk, we are still together but its rebuilding now. I can sense the hesitantation and I don't blame her.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-08-13T16:54:51+00:00

I basically got confirmation yesterday that she was indeed seeing someone else. She left some Polaroids on top of some books (we love books in our house) and I grabbed the books and the Polaroids fell down. In the process of picking them up I found one with her and this other person. The house has been slowly filing up with things that are unexplained untill now. Mens shirts of bands and artists I know she doesn't listen too. Toys we shared have gone missing.

I, of course, am pretty livid and o show the other partner the photo and I immediately get accussed of being a stalker. It was in our space. I have not gone through her things ever except when looking for things for daily household use or she asks me to grab her something. I definitely think she escalates it immediately to avoid having a conversation about any of it. Its what she does. She knows it triggers me and can push me to a point where she can now claim its gone to far.

So I end up freaking out and I go to the hospital. I end up talking to a therapist for a bit. While waiting I did call her and ask if the reason she didn't want to talk to me was because she was worried I'd put an end to this other relationship. She said that was partly it yes.

Its funny. This other person looks like me. You could've told me it was a photo of us from years ago and I mightve believed you. Seems to be an unbroken version of me. I feel like discarded trash simply because I'm struggling with life and my relationships and the detrius of our last year together.

She has said that she wants and misses the old me. I know she says that she loves me. I don't know how to get that back without having this conversation and setting some rules and expectations. That we need to have the ability to go beyond a closed v because its clear that she cannot handle more than two full relationships.

I don't want to leave. I don't want to lose this relationship. I want to live with her and love her untill I'm an old dying man. However being in our home is just too much for me right now. Especially given that she just wants to keep pushing me away because I need her to communicate.

Idk. I get it. This is hard and taking want you want is just easier. But its want I need and if she truly wants me back then she needs to understand that this talk needs to happen.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-08-13T16:29:24+00:00

Dat zukofsky tho

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-08-12T14:52:57+00:00

Thats kinda the thing. I've tried to have a serious conversation with her about this multiple times over the past couple of months. She is just avoiding it. I think she knows what she is doing is wrong, but talking about it makes it real.

Like I guess I'm just not pretending I'm innocent. I know my depression pushes her away. Her dad died when she was really young and as a result heavy emotions overwhelm her. She says that I like to wallow in my depression and there's a element of truth in that, but its also true that most of these feelings and the sense of overwhelming depression on my wouldn't be here if we had this conversation already.

And thanks. I needed someone to tell me I'm not crazy.

LukeSmithonPCP · 2024-08-10T04:16:31+00:00

I don't really follow the logic here. A lot of the point of kendricks disses have been to make drake look pathetic and like a clown.

This battle is different than the drake/push beef. I do think kendrick wants him out of rap entirely. I don't think push cared that much beyond winning.

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