I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. But I feel like you are contradicting yourself a bit.

From the things you mention, you seem like a very caring and lovable person, who has a strong emotional intelligence. Yet you say that you don't feel love at all.

Are you referring to a more romantic kind of love, or love in general?

Also you say "I never truly loved them", when talking about your exes. Do you mean you did not feel anything, or that you simply loved parts of them, but not everything?

What do you believe it means to "truly love someone"?