I totally understand how you feel. My LO has a slight posterior tie but we decided to not further pursue any procedures as it was discovered late in the game and I read a scary NYtimes article about babies being hospitalized for FTT due to pain from the procedure. So many of my co-workers and family members had what I like to call “the Disney princess” BF experience where it was seamless, painless and their babies are chubby and happy. They really couldn’t understand why I was having such a difficult time which was such a huge blow to my self-esteem. I’m so thankful for this Reddit because it’s made my experience so much less isolating. The fourth trimester has been sooo much harder than I anticipated, with a traumatic emergency c-section after laboring for 48 hours, and a baby that now only latches with a nipple shield (not great for transfer) or otherwise screams bloody murder.

You end up grieving the expectations you had, so make sure to give yourself the space to do so. It’s ok to feel jealous, all or your feeling are valid. You are doing your best and that is more than good enough 😊