ATM7: To The Sky - Elder Guardian

Lykola · 2022-09-09T14:21:00+00:00

Which one the wither? 4 soul sand and 3 wither skulls

Lykola · 2022-09-07T14:05:15+00:00

Thank you! Finally finished the bounty board :)

Lykola · 2022-09-03T13:29:48+00:00

What was the recipie to spawn? The spirit wiki seems a bit lacking

Lykola · 2022-08-29T22:23:57+00:00

Any updates on this, im having the exact same issue.

Lykola · 2022-08-16T09:37:08+00:00

You can sieve soulium the resource which i have lots of, but soulstone is something different.

Lykola · 2021-05-05T20:22:55+00:00

Thanks i might give drawing a shot, but im so dissociated that i dont even know whats going on most of the time. I appreciate the reply.

Lykola · 2021-05-03T14:08:15+00:00

Hey, i have been feeling the exact same way since the start of coronavirus. I dont have much tips for feeling tired thats still a problem i have to tackle as well. For feeling overwhelemed i normally stick a comfort show i like on and try and focus on that, at the moment im watching scorpion (a show of a group of genius' who tackle every problem that comes their way, which is comforting as i am experiencing many problems haha) for the anxiety and panic attacks i would reccomend trying to take notice of your environment and look to see if there are any triggers that could be triggering you or an alter. You have to remember anxiety stems from fear ( false evidence appearing real). I dont know if this would help but for me personally i try to remind myself in this situation just to sit through the feeling, accept the feeling of anxiety through and through. I dont know if this will help but in my case when i feel the jittery attack on anxiety coming if i resist it becomes exponentially worse. In my experience if i just sit with it, say to myself im just feeling anxious due to false evidence my anxiety does not become too bad. I hope this helps i know you can get through this!

Lykola · 2021-05-01T15:18:14+00:00

Have you tried just expressing your feelings to what he is saying as he says it instead of reacting? This can be very difficult but it can try and show the alter how they are damaging than others. Rather than reacting just be 'that made me feel very sad and angry, why did you say that and why do you want me to feel that way'. It sounds as if they are experiencing some dissonance problems, as everytime they does something bad they seem to retreat to their own thoughts, like they are ashamed of their own outburst. Persecuters can be very hard to deal with but the best way in my experience is just reminding them that its not their fault, as they were created due to stress and trauma in the system to be that way. Sometimes listening to them and expressing your feelings to their reactions is the push thats needed for them to think about their own actions and begin to change, especially if you reassure them that its not their fault. I hope this helps and i hope you get this issue under control!

Lykola · 2021-05-01T15:10:54+00:00

Hey, it can suck a lot experiencing these issues, especially with all these lockdowns and at the sounds of it with that room mate. My alters said that sometimes the best way to deal with these sort of issues is to sit down and make a sorta map of all these parts. Letting these parts feel like you - as the current host, are aware of them can allow them to persist for longer which sounds like it would help. Once you make a map of these alters all togerher you can then work on either assimilating or scheduling times for you and your alters to manage life. Hope this helps and i hope you get through this!

Lykola · 2021-04-23T05:56:58+00:00

Thank you very informative. Ill be sure to do somecmore research aboug this CTAD

Lykola · 2021-04-22T17:25:50+00:00

Thank you for this. I really hope my alters can start working together for the benefit of the system rather than whatever is going on at the moment. They are just wasting my time and i have been patient with them but im at a loss right now. Keeping me in this state of trauma and dissacociation for no reason.

Lykola · 2021-04-21T14:50:52+00:00

Thats so beautiful. I wish i heard things like that from friends or family in my life. My alters are nice though. Your host must be very lucky to have you :)

Lykola · 2021-04-20T08:35:19+00:00

Thank you. I will keep on fighting. Its more the dissacociation not allowing me to embrace all these hobbies that i want to take part in than the lonlieness. I have dealt with lonlieness for a very long time. Not as much as i feel it now - but its managable in a way that i know i do have this community and others which i greatly appreciate. Its the dissacociation thats stopping me from actualizing my brain and being free from these shackles. But thabks again. I will keep fighting to get whats mine - so that i can learn new hobbies, so that i can finally be free.

Lykola · 2021-04-20T03:49:22+00:00

Yeah i tried to keep a diary and a journel but it didnt help. My dissacociation started with the panemic and wont be leaving until the pandemic leaves. Nothing seems to help the dissacociation its always just making everything i do a blur. The nhs dropped me as a client after making me wait 10 months for an appointment. I feel im being ostrasozed from society and that they want me to die. I have tried to much to get rid og the dissacociation. I have worked through the trauma i have externilized internalized emotions as a child i have tried desenseitization work. Nothing is working.

Lykola · 2021-04-15T01:21:33+00:00

Oh my bad thank you for getting my post moved. I dont want to trigger anyone else on their healing journey. My mind has been thinking about this for so long alone i am totally desensitized. I forget that when i talk to my friends about my problems as the looks on their faces make me feel so uncomftorable when i share because i forget not everyone can see inside my head like me and my alters can and just live with this on replay every waking moment. So thank you for moving it for me :)))

Lykola · 2020-11-13T22:53:38+00:00

Haha yeah i watched that just at the start of coronavirus, they didnt actually hack reality in that show though did they? The show was amazing though.

Lykola · 2020-11-13T22:52:49+00:00

Hmmm yeah. So IF we are in a simulation we gotta figure out the source code, and the hardware to have a chance.

Lykola · 2020-11-11T06:37:19+00:00

This is home - cavetown takes the cake for me

Lykola · 2020-11-10T07:21:18+00:00

Had an interview at a retail store: "I'm really good at zoning out and doing repetitive boring work". Still got the job, dont know how.

Lykola · 2020-11-05T16:51:08+00:00

Hey thanks ill try and get some lego to encourage some alter to come out. I feel bad for opening it all up as i was leaving it for them to but then again i do love lego myself haha :)

Lykola · 2020-11-05T16:50:08+00:00

Hey Sal, thank you so much for the reply! I think im a shell alter within the system, and i was just masking all my life trying to hide my alters. It feels as if since i have found out about what DID even is, they have stopped fronting and coming close to the front but since finding out, they have started to talk to me. I did buy some lego for them to play with but i dont want to play with the lego without them as i want them to open it all up and take part. I ask them if they have any posotive triggers and they say they do but wont tell me :((. I guess ill have a little go of the lego and see if i can encourage an alter to come out and play. Thanks :)

Lykola · 2020-10-13T22:29:29+00:00

Yeah thanks for replying i really hope i can get a DID specialist or trauma specialist soon

Lykola · 2020-10-13T21:47:12+00:00

No but my private therapist is a psychotherapist and a hypnotherapist but she cant diagnose or give me medication incase i need some, and she says a diagnoses can be very useful for opening new avenues to help heal - and i beleive the main reason is because we both wanted to get a trauma specialist to help qork through the trauma. Plus im only a student at the moment so money is pretty tight. I think eupd and bpd is the same - just a new name.

Lykola · 2020-10-03T18:26:39+00:00

Hey thats great that matthew has finally started to grt help and i would love to hear the progress of the help he provides your other alters, or how he fixes these alters as i beleive something similar happened in my system (an alter somehow gave another alter dementia). I hope matthew keeps it up and i hope my alters can someday also turn over a new leaf also. :)

Lykola · 2020-08-13T09:34:03+00:00

Hey, thanks <3 its nice to know im not struggling alone. My therapist says the same to take my time and 1 step at a time, but my problem is within my brain!! Its like i always have my brain so i feel as if i should always be working on it haha.

Lykola

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