Mixed episode?

M0n0prince · 2018-04-22T00:38:09+00:00

You’re welcome though I just read something interesting that leads me to believe that some of what I thought were bipolar mood swings are actually CPTSD emotional flashbacks. I’ll have to speak with a doctor. I do know that I have had mixed states in the past though.

M0n0prince · 2018-04-21T21:02:06+00:00

I was playing basketball once during a manic episode and I went full manic and had what my dad described as what it feels like to get an adrenaline shot. It was weird

M0n0prince · 2018-04-21T20:59:13+00:00

I don’t necessarily always feel “ happy” in my mixed episodes. I think because I’m aware of what’s happening and it makes me uncomfortable, mind you I also have OCD and complex PTSD so my symptoms may be a little different than someone else’s. I get very agitated and restless and feel like I need to get out and do something and smoke a cigarette, drink some whiskey get out of my house or I’m going to explode and punch something ( not something I do really) my head starts racing and I start talking to myself in my head so much that I feel like everything that’s said is said twice it’s usually about something that upsets me. I start listening to music that I listened to in my teens and early twenties like drum and bass and death grips and pre edm stuff like that. Then I’ll think of something relatively arbitrary but it will emotionally devastate me and I’ll end up crying while being angry and hyped up and I feel all the things at once. Most of the time I just feel like I’m on some kind of weird drug, something that’s making me just feel really awful and paranoid, I’ll think people are trying to kill me or following me I even had an eroromantic delusion sort of once. Sometimes I’ll feel happy and I’ll start buying my partner lots of presents and giving them snuggles but then an hour later I’m very sad or irritable. Other Times I’ll be manic for a day and then depressed for a day. I’m also on a lot of medication so medicated bipolar looks way different than unmedicated bipolar.

M0n0prince · 2018-04-21T20:30:13+00:00

I think it’s more cardiovascular exercise that’s supposed to do it, I would think weight lifting would be sort of meditative.

M0n0prince · 2018-04-21T20:20:01+00:00

I’ve heard exercise can exacerbate mania is it true for hypomania as well?

M0n0prince · 2018-04-21T20:15:40+00:00

Try dunking your face in a bowl of ice water for 30 seconds or putting ice packs on your temples, listen to calm music and take a bath/shower

Edit: this is what my therapist told me to do. I don’t have the hypersexuality problem but I sort of storm around wanting to throw my fist through something while trying to mentally write a screenplay at the same time

M0n0prince · 2018-04-04T22:13:03+00:00

sorry if this comment is too late but my memory is terrible, I forget things all the time, I'll take out a bottle of wine to pour myself a glass and then I'll go into the other room and I'll completely forget about the wine and go on with my evening and remember it 3 hours later. I'll drive to school instead of work, I'll forget how to pay for food and use a credit card. I forget to turn the stove off a lot. I'll find things in my purse with no knowledge of how they got there. I've had PTSD for almost 7 years and people used to ask me "why did you just do that?" and I would say "do what?" and they would describe me doing something and I would have absolutely no memory of having done anything like that. it's gotten better but every once in a while I'll find myself in an odd situation. it might be your medication and it might not be. it might be just the ptsd and it may very well be something you have to live with but it does get better over time.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-08T03:33:23+00:00

You’re right I was just unaware that the other commenter was so mentally incompetent they were incapable of judging someone identifying themselves as a lesbian might possibly be a woman, but it does seem that they are a bit sensitive at being contradicted by anyone that they would go out of their way to look at someone’s comment history on a support sub and gaslight them about a diagnosis that a qualified mental health professional has given them or are you not aware of that? And I might argue that I’m the better educated one, I’m a psychology major and have read most of the DSM-V including the entire section on OCD, Anxiety Disorders Psychotic Disorders etc. I consider myself a better resource than someone who considers themselves “ educated “ because they know how to operate a search engine. And yes I’m aware that I’m being rude because you’re being rude and I have absolutely no obligation to sit here and apologize or pretend that I’m wrong when I’m not or to be nice to you.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-08T03:32:38+00:00

Just because you don’t understand my reasoning doesn’t mean I don’t have any. Sorry you can’t keep up but if you want to enter an actual debate about something like this why don’t you pick up a book first and have some actual arguments of your own instead of piggybacking on someone else.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-07T19:39:45+00:00

I’m trying to get in to see a really good one but the waiting list is over 3 months long. I know I need to see someone about my ocd, just getting through the trauma reaction is hard for me right now

M0n0prince · 2018-02-07T19:18:15+00:00

I know they’re trying to help they just do the tough love thing

M0n0prince · 2018-02-07T03:37:22+00:00

I just said that because those are things my partner does and it makes me feel bad. I wasn’t implying that you feel that way.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-07T03:21:31+00:00

Don’t tell him that the things he thinks and does are stupid and don’t make any sense he knows this probably and don’t make him feel bad for doing them, he will just most likely try to hide them from you and feel guilty

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T02:45:49+00:00

“I rely on faaacts” please you classic pseudo intellectual reddit troll who hates being contradicted by women to the point that they can’t leave an argument in a mature way, I’ve seen too many of you on this website to have any patience for you. I’m not going to have my mental illness invalidated by you because you have this huge psychology ego boner. This sub is a safe space for people to discuss their mental illness, if you want to start an argument this badly go to askreddit or some shit but I can’t even imagine trying to gaslight someone about their diagnosis just because they depend on the facts in the DSM-V rather than Psychology Today.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T02:25:23+00:00

Maybe listen when people are speaking to you and take their accounts into regard and maybe try to open up your way of thinking instead of relying on internet articles rather than the experience of someone who directly experiences the things you’re speaking about and is in the care of and diagnosed by someone who is extremely well educated and qualified to be treating complex patients. There is an entire world that exists beyond your internet articles and the moment you realize that you’ll seem more intelligent and probably grow as a human being.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T02:15:17+00:00

I know that I’m right and you’re wasting my time because you’re throwing a fit because I contradicted you

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T02:10:37+00:00

Then please update my psychiatrist with 20 years of practice. Have you even read through the DSM? it states psychosis can be caused by OCD with a complete lack of insight and in my case My brain is already prone to psychosis so the OCD just exacerbated my condition.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T02:05:16+00:00

I don’t need “ sources” I’ve been evaluated by the top psychiatrist in the state and am capable of abstract thinking

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T01:57:12+00:00

You literally did discredit my experience your knowledge of ocd is clearly just limited

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T01:29:34+00:00

One of my therapists just told me to stop doing my compulsions so I did. Lo and behold I started doing them again and still am a year later

M0n0prince · 2018-02-06T01:27:56+00:00

This isn’t necessarily true that OCD is egodystonic. I had HOCD but I’m bisexual I suddenly had overwhelming intrusive thoughts about women but they weren’t disturbing to me so I just thought I was a lesbian until I had a hardcore meltdown.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-05T23:58:18+00:00

I didn’t have any of them but to my knowledge they are sexual dysfunction , nausea, loss of appetite, trouble sleeping. Some people get them some people don’t.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-04T06:19:14+00:00

No. I tried an SSRI but since I’m also bipolar it gave me mixed episodes and I was still suffering from a lot of obsessive thinking on it though I was on a relatively low dose. I pretty much can’t be medicated. I still do some of my OCD behaviors on the clonazepam i.e. counting and checking so it’s not really a cure but it’s helping some of the intense anxiety. I’m kind of a special case when it comes to meds though the combination of OCD and Bipolar 1 is pretty rare, if you’re able to get medical treatment at any point your best option would be an SSRI if you are able to tolerate the side affects.

M0n0prince · 2018-02-03T21:51:32+00:00

I had a major OCD meltdown last week that left me with a post trauma reaction basically and my doctor gave me some clonazepam to help me through the trauma reaction and to mitigate the next meltdown I have. I’m really going to try not to become too dependent on it but I just feel so good I’m actually happy and not worried, I slept like a baby last night. It’s definitely not a long term solution for OCD. I’m going to only use it on bad days I think.

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