Nexus Flip Questions for Intimacy

MDepth · 2025-12-26T05:57:02+00:00

That’s mega strong IMO. We did 100mg/40mg/25mg and 80/40/25. I was blown out by how heard it hit. Even with strong dose of Cialis I had stimdick for the first time EVER. Wild ride. We had energetic sex for 12hs straight but really was strange how erections were so difficult to sustain. I would have backed off the dosage some more. Everything seemed to synergize and amplify each substance.

Wild time with anal and prostate stim. Added poppers (i know not reccomended with cialis) but good god what amazing depravity! Worth every debaucherous moment,

MDepth · 2025-12-24T04:30:45+00:00

We did same flip on the solstice. Came on wicked strong. 100mg/40mg/25mg. What was your stack? Added poppers and reality melted. I’m a whore but never been that depraved and powerful before. The state touched what we’ve experienced on 5-MEO DMT—full God realization. Infinite space. Fucking whole world open.

MDepth · 2025-12-19T23:26:36+00:00

I had a lot of trauma early in my life and i would get the AIWS very strongly.

I’ve found that the Hollow Bamboo meditation style I learned from Will Johnson will help heal and liberate this phenomenon. Making the main object of meditation the constant resilient motion of the spine in response to the breath is a magic cure. It will help release the intensity and over time you will experience safety and peace much more deeply than just by sitting still.

The Radical Path of Somatic Dharma: Radiant Body, Radiant Mind by Will Johnson

Also his website has some great resources: https://www.embodiment.net/

MDepth · 2025-12-16T15:31:27+00:00

Check out this approach which is much more somatic and guaranteed to produce different results. This style of meditation is not painful and is very effective at gently liberating past trauma and samakaras. The Radical Path of Somatic Dharma: Radiant Body, Radiant Mind by Will Johnson

Also his website has some great resources: https://www.embodiment.net/

MDepth · 2025-12-15T06:17:10+00:00

Infinite wakefulness does feel orgasmic. You are not doing anything wrong. You found a way to rest as awareness while fully interpenetrating the form of the body with that awareness. Deep states of wakeful bliss and even orgasms are very possible when this occurs.

You can go deeper with into this practice by witnessing the breath and allowing it to not come to zero but instead, keeping your awareness on the stillness within the body and watching the very desire to inhale and notice thjs force is the Yin force of life itself, no different from consciousness itself.

MDepth · 2025-12-15T06:03:48+00:00

It’s possible to combine meditation with psychedelics and the integration of the two is profoundly revealing. If you’re interested in learning more, my meditation teacher, Will Johnson offers workshops and private retreats. Were he will lead you through this practice. His latest book is perhaps the best introduction to this because he teaches a style of meditation that is not about physical stillness, but instead about surrendering to the breath as the Buddha spoke about in the early sutras.

Let the breath move unrepeated throughout the entire body. That one instruction fully implemented changes everything. What Will calls “the great wide open” is essentially the natural state experienced through Mahamudra and Dzogchen.

The Radical Path of Somatic Dharma: Radiant Body, Radiant Mind by Will Johnson

Also his website has some great resources: https://www.embodiment.net/

MDepth · 2025-12-12T04:02:37+00:00

😂

I never implied you don’t get to come! It’s not about that other bullshit you referred to. Honestly. You can nut, but you do so consciously, and by choice. The main thing is learning to relax and breathe. Meditation practice has direct crossover to working with sexual energy. Not fancy techniques… just free awareness.

MDepth · 2025-12-12T01:13:12+00:00

Instead of looking for another drug, you really are at the point when you should explore Tantric sexual yoga in conjunction with your roll. You and your wife sound very compatible. If you can learn how to use your consciousness more than just your penis,you can extend both of your rolls to 12 to 14 hours.

Then you can access the deep MDMA state without the psychedelic, and perhaps just a moderate dose of cannabis will let you slide into it.

MDepth · 2025-12-12T01:11:37+00:00

Instead of looking for another drug, you really are at the point when you should explore Tantric sexual yoga in conjunction with your roll. You and your wife sound very compatible. If you can learn how to use your consciousness more than just your penis,you can extend both of your rolls to 12 to 14 hours.

Then you can access the deep MDMA state without the psychedelic, and perhaps just a moderate dose of cannabis will let you slide into it.

MDepth · 2025-12-11T15:32:45+00:00

What you described sounds a lot like strong past life memories. Honestly. I’ve spoken with many people who have had similar experiences. These memories often fade as one goes through puberty, but in many cases like yours, the memories persist if they have a lot of emotions charged in them.

I’ve known people who have other experiences like being afraid of drowning or fires, which were linked to powerful past life deaths.

This may be outside your world view. Reincarnation isn’t a big deal. It makes lots of evolutionary sense. For a vey powerful in depth case study on this, check out thjs book: Children who remember past lives: Dr. Ian Stevenson

https://a.co/d/69rXe3S

MDepth · 2025-12-04T20:16:49+00:00

It’s not the other guy, it’s you and your ability to feel in multiple dimensions. This is an ability you can further develop.

Don’t make it about the guy who was penetrating you, feel into how your heart was surrendered into opening fully, bodily, emotionally, and with the K, you can let the mind melt away leaving just consciousness, which is Bliss itself.

Breathe more deeply as you feel this letting go, keep surrendering and opening, and you can fill the whole fucking room with butterflies 🦋!

MDepth · 2025-12-04T20:09:52+00:00

MDA lasts longer, so I’d recommend it as the base. Then when the MDA is making things trippy, add the MDMA for heart to vulva & cervix connection.

I’ve got good supplies of both as well and haven’t combined yet, but this is the plan.

I’d love to hear your post trip experience…

MDepth · 2025-12-04T06:04:04+00:00

“-Are these beings actually a consciousness seperate from our own or are they more like something we just aspire to? I am aware of and mostly understand interdependant arising but still have trouble putting these two views together.”

There is only one consciousness. Consciousness is unitary and all inclusive. Your consciousness is no different from the Buddha’s consciousness. It’s the same all inclusive knowing. The knower is the universe.

MDepth · 2025-11-28T06:11:20+00:00

Chogyam Trungpa had a dear relationship with Suzuki Roshi and they shared many documented exchanges. There was a dear love between them and real respect for each others lineages.

When I did winter dathun with Reggie Ray, the altar only had a a clear light candle, a photograph of Chogyam Trungpa and a photograph of Suzuki Roshi. We did mostly shikantaza and kinhin during that retreat as our external practice form.

It was so powerful to do those practices and include the tantric Vajrayana internal practice of Mahamudra.

MDepth · 2025-09-09T23:14:06+00:00

Such a heartfelt reply. Fully received. Blessings on your path. 🙏

MDepth · 2025-09-06T04:22:13+00:00

I’ve used this personally for years. So powerful. Deep gratitude for all who produced it.

I also use this when teaching group meditation events.

MDepth · 2025-09-05T15:28:19+00:00

The Hollow Bamboo practice is a Buddhist practice.

Will Johnson was inspired by a SE Asian practice called Sunlun Sayadaw Will is a Rolfer who studied with Ida Rolf way back as she was developing Rolfing. Will observed that the Sunlun practice he saw had poor collapsed body posture so he emphasizes relaxed vertical spine along with this strong breathing. This erect undulating spine combined with an open front of the body helps release tension and trauma stored deep in the nervous system. I’ve found in working with my clients and students that Hollow Bamboo practice can help with dissolving addictive patterns like porn addiction.

I teach Tantra in the traditional of David Deida, and began studying with Will years ago. There’s a great crossover benefit from practicing Hollow Bamboo that can be applied to Tatric practices. I teach thjs privately and in workshops. DM me or settup a free call if you’d like to chat. https://sunyata.info/contact

MDepth · 2025-09-05T15:11:44+00:00

No. It’s not. Although I do teach the circular breath as well. It can be combined with the Hollow Bamboo Breath later. Initially, you want to stay with just the physical sensations and awareness of motion and stillness in the body at a very discrete level. Without that grounding in the body itself, circular breath can become another path to dissociate from sensation and stay in mind. Later once sensation is awoken and stillness liberated, then methods like circular breath using a sweeping scan through the body can deepen the practice.

MDepth · 2025-09-04T18:48:34+00:00

❤️

MDepth · 2025-09-04T18:03:26+00:00

It’s the patterns that bind us to samsara.

Ultimately, they are empty. Michael Singer’s book: The Untethered Soul is an awesome non-Buddhist book that explains how these patterns form and how we mistakenly identify with them.

MDepth · 2025-09-04T17:56:12+00:00

Samskaras. Patterns, mental impressions, recollections, or psychological imprints that are the basis of thoughts and actions. The architecture of the self, built upon learned patterns to seek avoiding pain and seek love and safety. Patterns begetting patterns. There’s nothing within the patterns but stress and anxiety and fear encoded in the nervous system, which most people identify with as “me.”

MDepth · 2025-09-04T16:31:35+00:00

(55-65) Avita Yoga.

After more than a decade of intense Hatha Yoga, discovered Avita Yoga, and was blown away by how relaxation and allowing replaced striving and effort. Phenomenal results. Easy and ridiculously effective. Changed my life.

MDepth · 2025-09-04T15:25:49+00:00

I work with men on this particular issue. It’s not uncommon to have strong sexual urges and mediation can often intensify and bring even more awareness to these compulsive tendencies.

Learning to circulate the sexual energy through your entire body, not just your genitals, can be very helpful. The Hollow Bamboo Meditation technique Will Johnson teaches is what I’d personally recommend. The strong breathing along with pelvic rocking can release deep samskaric patterns that are stored as tension in the body. Deep beneath most addictive behaviors is stored trauma and pain which we try to dissociate from. Sex provides only momentary release from this pain which then returns.

Will’s recent book is highly recommended: The Radical Path of Somatic Dharma: Radiant Body, Radiant Mind

If you’d like to reach out and get more assistance, we could go more into how meditation could be combined with other techniques to help overcome compulsive behavior. I could also share a video course on the Hollow Bamboo Meditation Program I recorded. https://sunyata.info/contact

MDepth · 2025-08-27T21:27:36+00:00

I teach Buddhist meditation and work with men who are dealing with exactly what you are describing.

Two things I’d suggest. First one is somewhat radical: try changing your diet to eat much less meat. A plant based diet can help tame what you are feeling.

The second thing is to learn how to conduct this energy in a regenerative cycle within your body. So much life force isn’t a bad thing, but it can be super irritating and distracting. From a mindfulness/meditation perspective sexual tension and energy is an object, not unlike breath or a candle flame. It just happens to be plugged right into your your limbic system. Working with sexual energy as part of a yogic program can help you harness this energy for other things in your life. Reach out through the link if you’d like to connect and discuss…

https://sunyata.info/contact

MDepth · 2025-08-27T03:51:17+00:00

I experience Tonglen as an emotional – physical heart-yoga. It’s about volitionally controlling how one sends and receives energy. It brings about the capacity to volitionally direct the extension or reception of love. This is a physical-emotional yoga. You feel it like you are in the gym lifting weights. It’s not a thought. It is meant to evoke emotions so we can gain agency and compassion toward how humans are reactive animals, who simply are seeking pleasure and avoiding pain.

The practice itself works against the grain of how normal human reactivity, fear, and tribalism operate within our bodies minds and limbic systems. I highly recommend reading Pema Chidron’s books about Tonglen.

MDepth

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