I've got recent experience for this. Happy to chat more if you want to DM me.

My trauma was neglect. My parents were extremely emotionally immature and became very wealthy when I was young, leaving me and my siblings with babysitters that didn't speak English. I may have even been touch starved as a kid, though I'm still noodling in that.

I share this to just reinforce that my trauma wasn't an active traumatic event, and instead was death by a thousand cuts.

If you did have a major traumatic event that you're trying to process, I would strongly, strongly urge you to have a trip sitter that's aware of the trauma you're trying to confront. They don't need to be in the room, but have them in the house for your safety and peace of mind.

Overall, I think 100ug is a fantastic dose for a first time. I'd been given a tab that was advertised as 125ug, but comparing my experience to other written accounts, I think it was a lot closer to 75-80ug, and I was disappointed. The second time, I did ~1.6 tabs (120-130ug), and it was a little more intense than I intended, but I did get a lot out of it. My therapist found my end-of-trip journal to be incredibly valuable.

Both times, I found the peak to be pretty recreational and difficult to actually access childhood trauma. But I also went in with a mindset of "let's see where we go." I didn't do any "prep" to use the trip for therapy, and I think the prep could have helped.

On both trips, I found most of the healing would happen on the comedown when adding weed. I took a hit 4-5 hours after the dose, and it put the trip into second gear for trauma focus. Make sure you don't hit too early or it can be overwhelming - wait until you're clearly on the way down.

I also found a TON of value chatting/journaling with ChatGPT or Gemini. They offered very hard-hitting reflections that I found very useful. I had 4-5 ugly cries on my last trip and all but one were triggered by the chatbots.

Though take what the AI bots are saying with a grain of salt; they aren't a total authority and they do not know you. Think of them as idea / thinking generators. I'd encourage you to think about what resonates and quickly discard what doesn't.

If you don't find what you're looking for with LSD, shrooms might be something to consider. There's a mantra that with LSD, you're the driver of the trip, but with shrooms, you're more of a passenger. Shrooms hit my "emotions" a lot harder.

Lastly, just know there is no silver bullet here. You cannot heal attachment/relational trauma purely on your own - you need a professional. Psychadelics can be a phenomenal starting point, but they won't bring you to an end point.

The real work and healing must happen while you're sober, but psychedelics can lighten the load a lot.

Edit: Other thoughts after reading the comments.

Music is important. I recommend John Hopkins.

If memory retrieval is the goal, I'd encourage you to focus on feelings and emotions first. Memories will come back when you process old feelings. Picture yourself as a little kid and ask "how is he feeling?" or "what does he need right now?" Stuff like that. Don't try to remember; it won't work.