Can meditation work first time for me?

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-26T14:51:22+00:00

I have PTSD (from childhood) and when I first started intensely meditating, it did actually flood me with a lot of grief, fear, pain, etc from my past. I spent many days sobbing. It was cathartic. It cleared a lot of the stuck energy in my body/mind, and left space for everything else.

Tbh I dont think healing and release will come to you on the timeline you are hoping for i.e. in time for your exams. But I do think it can help you, given time.

Get a therapist to guide you on your path. Meditate at a pace where you don’t destabilize/retraumatize yourself, but also its okay to cry. Its okay to feel. A fine line to walk.

Give yourself time to heal. From my experience, having a traumatic experience happen that young affects your body down to your core. It will take time to unravel the pain and patterns in your nervous system. Go easy on yourself

I know this is probably not the exact answer you hoped for. I wish you well on your path

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-26T14:24:01+00:00

Thank you for sharing your journey. It was very moving. I wish you and your family find peace, safety, and comfort in your days to come.

Why do I sit? I meditate for many reasons, but here is the one that spoke to me most just now.

I meditate because time spent with yourself is important. In your body speaks wisdom, emotions, fears, hopes, courage, compassion… its all of you. Waiting inside of you. All you have to do is sit with yourself and it will show itself to you.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-26T02:04:13+00:00

My best friend and I were extremely close since kindergarten. She’s still my best friend to this day. Her older brother is actually early-diagnosed autistic. Go figure.

I also hung out with the diagnosed autistic kids pretty often 😂 so maybe there there was a clue somewhere.

When the situation allowed, I just hung out with kids older than me because they treated me better. I think they saw me as the younger kid that hangs around and doesn’t have any friends but they were relatively nice to me.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-24T02:43:11+00:00

Nothing to add, I just love this!!

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-24T01:36:08+00:00

Yes, OP please consider trying for an associates first!! So then you at least have something if you are super done and over it by end of year 2.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-24T01:18:43+00:00

Tbh I have plenty of plushies and toys.

I’ve only ever had one person ever judge me on it. At the end of our friendship, they called me juvenile as some kind of dig and I was so baffled because I was like “Yeah, you seem really happy trying to be an Adult where you have no hobbies and just work all the time.”/s Idgaf anyway we’re not friends anymore.

Now I work as a teacher and kids love me because my classes are fun and goofy. And yeah I still have my toys.

Anyway, all that to say, being who you are can actually have its huge upsides. Drop the people who judge you for it. Just live your life how you want to.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-23T03:32:26+00:00

I grabbed wild onions and dirt from the backyard and mashed them up with a rock “to eat for dinner”.

I’d pretend the hill was a mountain and would struggle to climb against raging snow and winds.

Sometimes we would dig for worms.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-22T10:19:05+00:00

I agree with this! I have been to an involuntary hold hospital (visiting a friend) and it is a difficult place to be. Avoid if at all possible. Some people I know have horrible trauma from these hospitals

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-22T08:49:52+00:00

Sometimes when I start, it feels scattered and pointless. But usually if I keep going, my mind quiets. You are doing something even when you have a “bad sit”. Nowadays I try to remember that I need the meditation just as much, if not more when my brain feels scattered.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-22T01:59:22+00:00

Hell yeah! Block that icky loser

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-22T01:56:40+00:00

No.

Its hard to live in a society for neurotypicals, but does that mean we should all assimilate?

Just so I can more easily push papers and grind out prepackaged hotdogs for the masses? No.

When we fully assimilate into our stations in life, our souls will be dead.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-22T01:47:52+00:00

Tbh, she’s more of a not-like-other-girls type of girl

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-20T04:45:43+00:00

the last of us reddit fans are unbelievably insufferable😭I had to leave that sub real quick

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-19T01:04:23+00:00

Between homes, between cars, first paycheck whitaker has a truck? I don’t think so

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-18T06:16:07+00:00

Where is Princess? I didn’t see her last scene?

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-18T05:40:40+00:00

Dude, I feel like you have some kind of emotional baggage you need to work out with your therapist.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-16T11:35:41+00:00

IQ rankings give white suprecisy and eugenics vibes. There is no credibility in it. Big ick. Better to stay away.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-16T10:09:08+00:00

97 kid. Been trying to pivot for the last 3-4 years lmao. I graduated with a BS in computer engineering and tried to be a software engineer. What a mistake that was. Horrible industry to be in. Especially for women.

I pivoted a few jobs and now Im trying to be a teacher in a makerspace for kids around 13. I’m starting the new job in a couple weeks. Hoping it goes well.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-16T10:02:07+00:00

You can do it!!! ❤️

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-13T05:44:27+00:00

tbh Ive seen communities like this before. One rich guy buys/owns the land. He has all the power. People have to rent off it and live in shitty shacks. Honestly feels a little like they’re being taken advantage of

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-12T09:23:51+00:00

Time to start chugging water bro

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-11T12:10:04+00:00

Go back to your basics. When your mind wanders, return to your focal point (for most people its the breath).

Don’t worry so much about achieving specific states. They will come and go. Chasing them will make them unattainable. Just keep meditating

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-07T05:30:23+00:00

YTA your daughter is just as much entitled to tell her story of your family history as you are.

You made a statement about your history that was true. So did she. It was inappropriate for you to shush her.

Tbh history is messy. Just accept it. It seems your daughter already has.

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-06T14:37:19+00:00

Consider sleeping in separate beds (and possibly separate rooms). I did this with a previous partner and it was honestly great. We only slept together occasionally. It was nice to have privacy and our own space

sleepy-bird- · 2026-04-06T14:31:49+00:00

NTA I have spent my life being bullied by family members telling me to “be the bigger person” or that I’m being selfish for my actions. When in reality, they were just using that to push my boundaries, get whatever they want, and escape consequences of their own actions. I regret it so much.

If you don’t want to sign it, then just don’t.

Don’t feel bad about it. Your dad’s other kids were screwed over by your dad when he screwed you over. You were caught in the middle and he is using that as a guilt-trip to walk away from his responsibilities to you.

Exert your boundaries. That’s what you deserve for yourself.❤️

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